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I'm worried with everyone....
5 years ago
ugh... i'm very worried, like, its not worried of posting something, but of my friends, in the start, i was an simple man that liked fetishes, but now i got some friends, like, Effra , Lugia96 and even Mybanks101 , they are all my good friends, even that i don't talk THAT much with Effra and Lugia96 , but they are the ones i remember meeting, and atleast we talk rarely, or its me who doesn't talk much, but theres Mybanks101 , who is my friend till now, and today/yesterday (by the date of the post), i became...worried with himWell, he was kinda feeling in his normal way, till he started feeling sad and then... depressed, i don't know, it felt like that for me when i was looking at the messages he was sending me, and then i started getting worried with him, i was screaming, almost crying, till the point i tried helping him, i tried drawing a Request for him, but i couldn't, bro, i feel so idiotic not being able to do that, to the point of i think its ENTIRELY MY FAULTi worry myself ALOT with the others, being many of them my friends, could be Effra , could be Lugia96 , could be DylanSoft , alphabetagamma986 , MLGWesleyFaZe , NickDudek1, and some others that i wanted to talk more like Vasya_the_Dark_Latex , Fnoxy and even Mel / warriorofthestars86 , i'm worried of losing friends, i'm worried of LITERALLY LOSING THEM BECAUSE I COULDN'T HELP THEM, i feel like an idiot if i don't help them, and i start to craze out, i cry, i get despaired, i almost punch myself, its LITERALLY MY FAULT!it may look like im being dramatic, but thats despair for losing a Friend, Mybanks101 in that situation was making it look like he didnt want to live anymore, i was feeling scared, i wanted to help him, and he didn't notice how i was feeling, until i said its my fault, i feel pity for everyone that gets ill, so i wanted to help by any ways, Art, Game, could be with anything, if i can't help, the fault is mine...Yeah... i feel like that inside, because i can't control myselfwhy this happens with me, WHY I DONT LOSE FRIENDS? IS IT BECAUSE IM GENTLE ATLEAST? Maybe its that...maybe it is...maybe...i...i only need to rest. I only wanna help everyone, thats why i give chances, i give help to whoever can't draw, im gentle with my partners, i literally do everything i can to help someone, i only want them all alive... i don't wanna lose friends, thats it... depression is something that affects meAnd if someone has depression, or any signal of it, i try helping them, i only want to make all happy, but i can't, i'm not just any Cat that likes fetishes and its small and known by some, i'm Caf, Caf the Omega Symbolic Cat, and i want to help you all when possible, you can even try to help me so i don't be like this, but i will never stop till i can help you!sigh i only... i don't know what to do... honestly... i only want... to help... i'm sorry if im talking like this or repeating everything i say everytime, but this is how i feel, i only want to help them all! sigh... i only need an rest...literally...
Stay safe please