I recently had a conversation with one of my dearest friends. It didn’t go well. I won’t reveal the identity of the person in question, but needless to say, I haven’t exploded like that in a long time, and I feel awful about it, especially because the person in question then said that if we continued speaking he’d say something he’d regret. I won’t offer any excuses, I won’t say any long winded nonsense about how I was in the right, what I will say is that... I hope I haven’t been too naive in thinking that apologizing can make things right. I told him I was sorry. He said that... I had been so nasty that he wasn’t sure that he could believe that, or... I’m paraphrasing, I’m not exactly sure what was said. The point is that... I don’t want to lose a friend over something this trivial and that, I acknowledge that I was the one most in the wrong. I was nasty. I was horrible. I admit that I’m not always the best person in the world, but looking back, even I am shocked and appalled by some of the things I said and did. I hope that my friend, who is as dear to me as anyone I’ve ever known will have it in his heart to forgive me, and I pray that I can assuage the anguish of this horrible argument and in time, we can put it behind us. More than anything, I just... I want us to go back to normal... I’m sorry, I really am. I never ever wanted to end our friendship, I still just want things back to normal. I won’t ask you to forgive and forget but to accept that... I’m a person and I make mistakes like anyone else. Above all, I ask from everyone who still bothers to follow this page that I’m not a saint. I’m not perfect. I hope I’m time that this will just he water under the bridge, but whether or not we can make amends, I’ll wear this incident as a scar in my heart forever. A reminder of what I can do with my words, and the damage I can inflict by being too proud, arrogant, and selfish. I don’t intend to be a horrible person, but at times, it happens regardless of my desires.