Discovery and thoughts

Hello! And welcome to another one of those...not rant journals, but a journal where I think out loud about things happening with me.

The first bit is a discovery I made about myself. I have been very busy lately with school and work. In school, I have two 8 week classes at a time. Even though I don't have final tests, I do have final projects, and those just eat up time. These last two projects have not gone entirely as planned, and I've felt like its been a constant scramble to get them done. At the same time I work part time at Best Buy (more on that later). My schedule there has gone from manageable to a chaotic mess with absolutely zero consistency. So, combine these two things together and I get basically an hour to myself each night for games and art. Its been stressful to say the least.

This last week, though, I finally decided to forget my troubles and have a full day to myself. I had a few Patreon projects that needed to be done, so I sat down and just started going at them. Hoooollllyyy crap did that feel good. For the first time in weeks I felt no stress. I was able to focus on the art the entire time instead of throwing in distractions here and there. That's my discovery: I really enjoy and miss doing art more regularly.

With that discovery I've really considered making an attempt to go full time with art. I figure I could move in with my sister, something she's encouraged me to do, and just do art stuff. My plan would be to vore art like I've been doing and add a game model store on Unity. I figure that would be a good way to refocus myself and get in a direction I want to go. My only worry is my drive. I am easily distracted, and it doesn't help that my work computer is also my gaming rig. I should have been doing something like this during the pandemic shutdown, but I was too busy enjoying all my new free time.

I think the one thing that's stopping me from quitting my job and doing something like this is I am not a fan of major change. When something works, I like to keep it that way.

I also want to say that I do enjoy working at Best Buy. The coworkers are great, and its nice having a discount on tech. Recently though, the customers have been rough. From dealing with those who don't wear masks or who complain about certain items not being in stock. Every day I go to work, I have this suspicion and dread that someone is going to push the wrong buttons and make me miserable. Its not a very healthy way to think about work. I want to quit, but its hard to leave right now.

Also, just as a bit of fun talk to leave off on, I tried real hard to get my hands on a 3090 Founders Edition. I've been waiting to upgrade my PC for a while, and I think that is by far the best upgrade I can get, especially for rendering. Twice, though, I missed my chance. So, until I can get one, I've been putting a little extra money off to the side to possibly get multiple upgrades, like a new motherboard and processor.