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Eugh! This has not been a particularly good year.
5 years ago
There's really no other way to put it. Pretty much in every way other than financially, It's been a struggle the last few months. My writing has pretty much gound to a standstill, and I have a page left on the next section of Reverse of Roles. I don't know that I want to even look at any of my other stories right now. My brain just isn't in a creative writing mood, and hasn't been almost all year.
My mental and emotional states have been on the down slope pretty much all year. I'm at a loss for where all the time went, and where I want to go from here. I feel like I'm in a rut that I can't get out of at the moment. The only things that have been numbing the pain, and slowing the spiral have been beer on the weekends, and excersize during the week. I know the beer probably isn't helping matters, but it's the only thing I have to lean on. No friends, no social life, no one I feel like I can genuinely talk to, nowhere I feel like I can genuinely let go of the stress, feel like myself and just cub out.
All of that isn't even getting into the fact that I work in the food service industry, and I have to constantly be on edge about getting and potentially transmitting the Rona. The fact that political discourse has further devolved, and you can't utter two sentances without feeling like you're going to upset someone's sensabilities on either side of the divide. Having to wade through the quagmire of social media during another election cycle. Although, I really did like the fact that AOC and Ilhan Omar played Among Us on Twitch to get out the vote, that was a highlight for sure!
I'm thinking about starting to get lotto tickets a few times a week. That way, if I win, I can buy a house in the Adirondacks and just get the fuck away from everything! Maybe even start an "Incontinence Supplies" store. Mostly to serve the legitimate incontinence needs of the community, but I would also have a side room for my fellow babs and cubs. Gotta have those ABU's, Crinklez and Tykables handy for the little ones! One can dream, right? Well, I hope everyone is doing alright. Don't worry about me, I've come out the other side of darker times than these, I'll muddle through and manage. Life's just gotta give me a little light to look forward to, so I can see where I'm going.
Thank you to everyone who has liked my stories and the images I've bought and posted. Also, thanks for reading my ramblings of journals. Sometimes you gotta vent to the void, and hope the void is listening. Good luck on whatever it is you're trying to accompish, and I hope to see you around while I lurk in the poorly lit corners of FA and the internet at large.
My mental and emotional states have been on the down slope pretty much all year. I'm at a loss for where all the time went, and where I want to go from here. I feel like I'm in a rut that I can't get out of at the moment. The only things that have been numbing the pain, and slowing the spiral have been beer on the weekends, and excersize during the week. I know the beer probably isn't helping matters, but it's the only thing I have to lean on. No friends, no social life, no one I feel like I can genuinely talk to, nowhere I feel like I can genuinely let go of the stress, feel like myself and just cub out.
All of that isn't even getting into the fact that I work in the food service industry, and I have to constantly be on edge about getting and potentially transmitting the Rona. The fact that political discourse has further devolved, and you can't utter two sentances without feeling like you're going to upset someone's sensabilities on either side of the divide. Having to wade through the quagmire of social media during another election cycle. Although, I really did like the fact that AOC and Ilhan Omar played Among Us on Twitch to get out the vote, that was a highlight for sure!
I'm thinking about starting to get lotto tickets a few times a week. That way, if I win, I can buy a house in the Adirondacks and just get the fuck away from everything! Maybe even start an "Incontinence Supplies" store. Mostly to serve the legitimate incontinence needs of the community, but I would also have a side room for my fellow babs and cubs. Gotta have those ABU's, Crinklez and Tykables handy for the little ones! One can dream, right? Well, I hope everyone is doing alright. Don't worry about me, I've come out the other side of darker times than these, I'll muddle through and manage. Life's just gotta give me a little light to look forward to, so I can see where I'm going.
Thank you to everyone who has liked my stories and the images I've bought and posted. Also, thanks for reading my ramblings of journals. Sometimes you gotta vent to the void, and hope the void is listening. Good luck on whatever it is you're trying to accompish, and I hope to see you around while I lurk in the poorly lit corners of FA and the internet at large.
