Have a writing bug and need to get it out-

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On a night like this I find myself sinking into my pillow deeper than usual, feelings of loneliness fill my mind, though not your normal every day loneliness, this is a special breed, a real torment of one. I have plenty of online friends yet something is missing and this is how it strikes, what I've coined ParaLoneliness (It probably has a name but my stupid bug brain doesn't know it so where sticking with Paraloneliness).

Paraloneliness is a real sneak, yes you have plenty of online friends, but have nobody to talk to face to face, let alone hug or give cheek smooches and this is how it tricks you.
You think "I cant be lonely, I call and chit chat with tons of people!" Yet its never face to face, though I'll admit I've never done it on a video call so I might not be 100% accurate but the point still stands, it makes you think something else is wrong but what's wrong is someone isnt within arms reach of you.

People need physical bonds and attachment, online bonds may be nice but dont fall into this trap that paraloneliness causes, the underlying boiling of dissatisfaction, hugging your pillow a bit tighter at night, the starving of contact is such an issue this day and age and we have zero idea how it affects others psychology.


Now I know, some people don't have irl friends, me included, but this is merely me just talking about it, I dont have solutions, but I think people should be aware with what little social Influence I have.


Or you could just ignore the quiet rabbles of this small 'squito and move about your day but you'd make me :(