First the good. Im starting a new job soon that will pay me better and appreciate the hard work that I will do for them. Also hopefully soon I will be getting my first home so Thats exciting.

Now for the bad. Every year on my birthday I dread it. To me its another day to where I get to see how little I truly mean to friends in this fandom. Got very little birthday wishes from my fur friends and no gift arts either. Seems like only popular furs and those the fandom deems worthy to exist get to have. So like I do every year on my birthday, I try to do things that will cause me to either die then or not have me wake up the next morning.

Some of you dont understand this cause you are loved and showered with affection by everyone. Try having nobody there and questioning whether or not you should even exist. Thats how bad my depression gets on my birthday and how badly I hate it. I should get used to the fact that you all only want me here for sex rps with my dragon and once you get it you toss me away like an used condom.

I cant be positive cause I have nothing to be positive about. Ya I could go see a therapist but Whats that going to do? Just more meaningless words bout how I matter when after I leave there is no action. Words are just sweet lies told by those who dont want to act and dont want to fess up to it so they can save face in the fandom.

Thats all for now.