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University, future jobs and my rising anxiety levels
5 years ago
Over the last couple of months, my university time has been seriously taking a lot of my brainpower, not helped by my worries about affording my flat costs.
I've been going through lectures on atoms, ions, elements, mass molars, balancing equations on Chemistry, learning about various ions, and how we test them. Learning about cells, their structures, their components, and learning how each component works in eukaryotic and prokaryotic cells. Recently my university is adopting some kind of laboratory simulation program called Labra, which simulates lab experiments and giving us quizzes to answer. A couple of these simulations take place on Mars and Titan, implying that we will colonise them in a decade or two. As a boy, I always wanted to go to outer space.
There's a lot of stress in learning everything, maintaining my timetables, and my appointments with my support assistants. What's really stressful is trying to do what's called Moodle Quizzes and not losing my mind in wondering if I get the right answers or more importantly not getting stressed out over trying to know what I'm supposed to remember and know. It makes me feel absolutely not confident in passing the exams I know I'll be taking at the end of the course.
It's not helped that there are no shortages of financial worries in my head. Despite my parents' reassurance and their finances, my desire to make money online on a number of things has caused a lot of arguments between my parents and the results are nothing short of horrible. The less I say about them the better, all I want is to sort out my list of things I can do to help myself in the near term. What's more disconcerting is that my parish council advertised a job as a street cleaner for my village and chances I'll be getting the job as I have an interview on Friday. I'm just worried that my studies will be affected by the job. What's more is that I managed to arrange my local surgery to get me to clean their car park of litter every fortnightly, paying me £20 for each cleanup. I've done a great job clearing up the litter there, but I haven't been paid yet. It's not yet the end of the month and already I'm interested in finding another car park that's just a short walk, or drive, to clean up for Saturday, but time, as well as looking into the subject will tell. What's also happened is that my boss for my weekend office cleaning job has found another client for me in the town I live nearby and is interested in seeing if it works for me. This will mean more money but I'm not convinced it's going to be enough. Still, I need to take time to adjust, otherwise, I'll overwhelm myself and I've already been down that road...
This afternoon, my mother and I took the dogs for a walk around a park a ten minutes drive from where we live, and during that time we decided to take a different path to found a large quantity of litter and large junk scattered around which I felt annoyed by and I wished I had my grabber and sacks to clean up the mess left there. I hope to get that place cleaned up. The Week reported less litter found but ITV says that facemasks are contributing to the plastic pollution crisis.
I did do some more cooking last weekend and I'll post the pictures later on.
On the subject of uni, one of my homework projects is to create a poster on a science subject and I decided to tackle deforestation. My written material isn't scientific, just filled with emotional claims that may not be all true. So I need to get refernces to support my claims. What's strange, is that they want me to take research in my subject from a non-white scientist, i.e. a black, hispanic, asian or some other ethic background that's not Caucasian. I find it bizarre, but I'm not really complaining.
This poster project is deadlined on 10th December, so while I have time, I can't afford to procastinate on the subject. Which is why my mum ordered a book and a tomato shaped egg timer to test "The Pomodorro" method.
I've been going through lectures on atoms, ions, elements, mass molars, balancing equations on Chemistry, learning about various ions, and how we test them. Learning about cells, their structures, their components, and learning how each component works in eukaryotic and prokaryotic cells. Recently my university is adopting some kind of laboratory simulation program called Labra, which simulates lab experiments and giving us quizzes to answer. A couple of these simulations take place on Mars and Titan, implying that we will colonise them in a decade or two. As a boy, I always wanted to go to outer space.
There's a lot of stress in learning everything, maintaining my timetables, and my appointments with my support assistants. What's really stressful is trying to do what's called Moodle Quizzes and not losing my mind in wondering if I get the right answers or more importantly not getting stressed out over trying to know what I'm supposed to remember and know. It makes me feel absolutely not confident in passing the exams I know I'll be taking at the end of the course.
It's not helped that there are no shortages of financial worries in my head. Despite my parents' reassurance and their finances, my desire to make money online on a number of things has caused a lot of arguments between my parents and the results are nothing short of horrible. The less I say about them the better, all I want is to sort out my list of things I can do to help myself in the near term. What's more disconcerting is that my parish council advertised a job as a street cleaner for my village and chances I'll be getting the job as I have an interview on Friday. I'm just worried that my studies will be affected by the job. What's more is that I managed to arrange my local surgery to get me to clean their car park of litter every fortnightly, paying me £20 for each cleanup. I've done a great job clearing up the litter there, but I haven't been paid yet. It's not yet the end of the month and already I'm interested in finding another car park that's just a short walk, or drive, to clean up for Saturday, but time, as well as looking into the subject will tell. What's also happened is that my boss for my weekend office cleaning job has found another client for me in the town I live nearby and is interested in seeing if it works for me. This will mean more money but I'm not convinced it's going to be enough. Still, I need to take time to adjust, otherwise, I'll overwhelm myself and I've already been down that road...
This afternoon, my mother and I took the dogs for a walk around a park a ten minutes drive from where we live, and during that time we decided to take a different path to found a large quantity of litter and large junk scattered around which I felt annoyed by and I wished I had my grabber and sacks to clean up the mess left there. I hope to get that place cleaned up. The Week reported less litter found but ITV says that facemasks are contributing to the plastic pollution crisis.
I did do some more cooking last weekend and I'll post the pictures later on.
On the subject of uni, one of my homework projects is to create a poster on a science subject and I decided to tackle deforestation. My written material isn't scientific, just filled with emotional claims that may not be all true. So I need to get refernces to support my claims. What's strange, is that they want me to take research in my subject from a non-white scientist, i.e. a black, hispanic, asian or some other ethic background that's not Caucasian. I find it bizarre, but I'm not really complaining.
This poster project is deadlined on 10th December, so while I have time, I can't afford to procastinate on the subject. Which is why my mum ordered a book and a tomato shaped egg timer to test "The Pomodorro" method.
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