I mean.... I really am though. Not that I try to be. Being social and relevant is.... difficult. And having a mind as conflicted as mind just complicates the process ten fold.

I don't know how to talk, engage, or just be friendly with people. I used to be better, but that's been bleeding off over time.

Who even could tell what it is. I'm honestly surrounded by a great amount of wonderful people. Surrounded myself, even. I know this. And yet, I still find it ever harder to open up.

If you're reading this, and we used to chat it up, I'm not asking you to forgive me for simply disappearing, going silent, or acting distant. I've slowly forgotten how to be... outgoing.