its been 10 days since I made a fateful choice to shoot myself in the foot with some really bad words that got me into some serious trouble. Those words can not be taken back nor do I expect forgiveness. What I can do is clarify apologize and move on with whatever I have left.

Ive already made one private apology to someone over this and clarified it with them

Ive been terrified of talking about this and even more terrified of using this site in fear of attacks because of my words. Its why I hid my page for 3 days and haven't mentioned anything up to this point. Things have calmed down a little now so I can make some comments on it. I have been blacklisted though by an unknown number of people and I accept my consequences.

I also Said I was going to leave. Once again, my friends have helped me through that and I'm staying put indefinitely.

Better late than never I guess...

- I shouldn't have jumped in like I did to that argument (I assumed it was an attack) and should of kept to my own journal about it because the whole position of the post was wrong. Some of the extreme cultural" comments about pokefurs were pretty crazy but I did mean them at the time. It wouldn't have been as bad of an issue had i kept them to my page. I'm sorry for jumping in like that and should have left it alone and let my brother-fur deal with it himself.

I have since seen a re-design of one of my characters as a "third" which is coming soon. I still intend to keep my Pokemon as my main regardless of my fate when it comes to commissions of him. I'm Too spiritually attached to him and have been since childhood.

Ive also since had to eat those words as I got gift art that pretty much annihilated my argument. So I'm sorry for stressing out my friends about it and my foolishness. I was emotionally overwhelmed and failed to see outside of the box.

- While I resolved it with the artist personally I will come out and say it here too. The "Artist Comparison" thing was a complete failure of words in a heated and stressful situation. I was dealing with 18 threads at that moment and I needed both tact and calmness, neither of what I was able to muster. So I apologize for my failure deeply. I did not mean to come off rude or insensitive and was attempting to strongly call out what I thought was attention seeking behavior. I was attempting to do this at the same time as directing an artist to judge themselves and not rely on other's comments in an already heated situation.

By Saturday night when I finally realized what happened I felt horrible at how bad I messed that one up. Really, really, horrible. Im usually much better at handling clutch communications like that and Im not sure why I messed it up so badly. I was already in hot water at the time and REALLY failed to calm things down. Even subsequent comments failed to clarify what I did wrong.

I will continue to try and improve. I must improve.

Again I'm sorry for my decisions and failures.