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update 12-2020
5 years ago
i'm at 170+ hours out of the 300 hours needed for the book course of my class.
after that i will be getting nothing but in salon hours, and i might not even bother to keep with the school for that and might just go to an actual salon that wants to hire me instead, it all depends on what my exams will require to get my license.
saturday i had 4 exams at once that i had to take because the teacher hasn't been keeping up with, y'know, teaching and assuming we're just gonna be ready for it for some reason, so it's been extremely stressful teaching myself an entire possible career on my own, hence the extreme lack of art and updates.
i want to thank all of you who have been nothing but patient with me, i know this year is hard for everyone, and it's no excuse to drag my feet this badly. if not for the bitter stress and cold i probably would have been done with a lot more than i have simply by working while at school but i am so damn awful about this.
i want to stop doing commissions all together soon, once i've graduated and i'm able to make my own money, enough to pay my bills and expenses, i plan on refunding whoever i haven't finished's commissions (god hopefully it won't come to that) and be able to just relax and enjoy my art again.
to all of you who have been nothing but gentle and kind to me, understanding and even donating to me during my time of need (there's been so many disasters this year holy fucking shit i am very lucky i'm still alive right now thanks to the kindness of you guys) i can't thank you enough.
please continue to support me, or at least keep me in your kinder thoughts should you ever think of me, as i am trying very hard to get through all of this one step at a time.
my emotional support groups that i needed, my therapist, all of it is gone due to covid or otherwise. it has been extremely hard to try and keep doing anything without my own head or my pain completely destroying any energy i had to do much of anything. very little inspires me to draw, and even less makes me entertain the idea of being an artist in general and going through with the full amount that i know i am currently drowning under.
i am overwhelmed, but this is not me trying to guilt anyone. you guys saved me from financial ruin and i am forever grateful for that.
i just pray that all of you can still continue to be understanding and know i am not trying to run away with anyone's money. i am just so damn slow compared to what i used to be. my mania hasn't hit me like it usually does and i fear that it won't so i can push through everything as fast as possible.
i love all of you, and i hope you stay safe this holiday season. it's a dangerous time of year for people in headspaces like me, so just... know you're not alone.
after that i will be getting nothing but in salon hours, and i might not even bother to keep with the school for that and might just go to an actual salon that wants to hire me instead, it all depends on what my exams will require to get my license.
saturday i had 4 exams at once that i had to take because the teacher hasn't been keeping up with, y'know, teaching and assuming we're just gonna be ready for it for some reason, so it's been extremely stressful teaching myself an entire possible career on my own, hence the extreme lack of art and updates.
i want to thank all of you who have been nothing but patient with me, i know this year is hard for everyone, and it's no excuse to drag my feet this badly. if not for the bitter stress and cold i probably would have been done with a lot more than i have simply by working while at school but i am so damn awful about this.
i want to stop doing commissions all together soon, once i've graduated and i'm able to make my own money, enough to pay my bills and expenses, i plan on refunding whoever i haven't finished's commissions (god hopefully it won't come to that) and be able to just relax and enjoy my art again.
to all of you who have been nothing but gentle and kind to me, understanding and even donating to me during my time of need (there's been so many disasters this year holy fucking shit i am very lucky i'm still alive right now thanks to the kindness of you guys) i can't thank you enough.
please continue to support me, or at least keep me in your kinder thoughts should you ever think of me, as i am trying very hard to get through all of this one step at a time.
my emotional support groups that i needed, my therapist, all of it is gone due to covid or otherwise. it has been extremely hard to try and keep doing anything without my own head or my pain completely destroying any energy i had to do much of anything. very little inspires me to draw, and even less makes me entertain the idea of being an artist in general and going through with the full amount that i know i am currently drowning under.
i am overwhelmed, but this is not me trying to guilt anyone. you guys saved me from financial ruin and i am forever grateful for that.
i just pray that all of you can still continue to be understanding and know i am not trying to run away with anyone's money. i am just so damn slow compared to what i used to be. my mania hasn't hit me like it usually does and i fear that it won't so i can push through everything as fast as possible.
i love all of you, and i hope you stay safe this holiday season. it's a dangerous time of year for people in headspaces like me, so just... know you're not alone.
