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... it's my birthday
5 years ago
Today i turned 21 and being very sincere i am not happy: i am very anxious about my future and my expectations, i never imagined that growing up would be so difficult
sacrifice all your dreams and every day kill yourself from working so hard to get money and pay bills and do it again the next morning consecutively for years ...
Today I had an anxiety crisis in relation to this: at 21 years old my mother and father were already married, had a job and already had a house and right at that age I only work on commission and I don't even leave her house I feel like a burden here
I understand that times have changed, the demands of the job market are more rigid and with the arrival of technology it makes it much easier on a daily basis: but part of me blames myself for not getting something that many already have
normally in situations like this one would say "calm down, everything has its time and this is not a competition" but when it comes to me it is difficult not to compare myself with others and feel completely useless
and to make matters worse I have a history of severe depression and anxiety that make it a longer and hellish process for me
I want to believe that I'm not a victim because I don't have the competence to do things without complaining: but I don't know, it has reached a point so critical that even I don't believe in myself
part of me just wants to believe that it's a bad time and that things will get better ... I hope
sacrifice all your dreams and every day kill yourself from working so hard to get money and pay bills and do it again the next morning consecutively for years ...
Today I had an anxiety crisis in relation to this: at 21 years old my mother and father were already married, had a job and already had a house and right at that age I only work on commission and I don't even leave her house I feel like a burden here
I understand that times have changed, the demands of the job market are more rigid and with the arrival of technology it makes it much easier on a daily basis: but part of me blames myself for not getting something that many already have
normally in situations like this one would say "calm down, everything has its time and this is not a competition" but when it comes to me it is difficult not to compare myself with others and feel completely useless
and to make matters worse I have a history of severe depression and anxiety that make it a longer and hellish process for me
I want to believe that I'm not a victim because I don't have the competence to do things without complaining: but I don't know, it has reached a point so critical that even I don't believe in myself
part of me just wants to believe that it's a bad time and that things will get better ... I hope
Have many more, buddy. Stay Burnin'!