For the last couple of days, everything has just been going downhill since my dad tested positive for COVID-19 and for the first days everything seemed fine as doctors said he seemed like he was on the last phase and just recovering but since thursday he started to get worse and by friray he had to be hospitalized and just an hour or so ago we got informed his state is considered severe.
I don't know how to feel, and trying to stay positive and distract my mind from bad thoughts just make me feel guilt like if I didn't care enough for him and now at his current state I just fear the worst which I think I'be been preparing mentally but emotionally I don't how how I would handle something like that, not even metioning the drastic change my family's world and mind would turn around. I suddenly would need to become the head of the family and assume so many responsabilities I feel overwhelmed just by thinking about it and I know I'll do it because I care for my family with all my soul, specially for my disabled sister I would have to take care of from now on.
I know I would had to at some point in life but right now I don't feel prepared nor have the resources to have all the family have agood and plentifull live and that's why I'm so scared.

I beg you all my customers to be patient as I'll probably be abcent for some time. If the time is large it would be safe to assume the worst happened but I will get back eventually and complete my obligations with you.

I just hope to get back here soon so that would mean things got better and everything were just a bad experience but nothing else.