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5 years ago
Decide right now if you want to read the text or not. It will not be about whether new drawings of mine will appear.
I know it's a long time ago that something comes from me, it is questionable that people still know me.
I am in an existential crisis, my life has changed, like many others this year, involuntarily. Things that I would rather do, now I can't do. Friends I haven't seen in ages I can only hear from a small electronic device called a cell phone. All because of my most hated word this year (even before the pandemic).
I get too frustrated about this, in a year where I should be celebrating. I've become an uncle, got a driver's license and a car, a new job, and lose all the stress of my old life. The bad stuff before has become bearable, but the nice stuff has been ruined for me. My familiar surroundings were senselessly taken away with no prospect of recovery. I asked myself several times the question "What is wrong with the humanity?". Even on the subject of driving a car in which I am already looking forward to my life is plagued by idiots who put others in danger or almost drive into me and my car becomes too to scrap. The last one is not a joke, I'm already glad that it did not happen, but it was close.
Now to the drawing itself.
The missing of my time is no longer surprising, so I'll spare you that.
I have lost my "talent" for it. It may sound absurd but I can't manage to make a good drawing anymore. I already had plans that it was my content and I would have to change it. But even then it didn't help. I try many in my freetime, nothing is good. Nothing will work. I'm frustrated about this.
I'm on a point in my life that I will give up drawing and do something other. Maybe I'll do it or not, it's no matter. I would tell you (who read this) whats going on behind the silent scene. Frustration about myself, or better now a kick for myself in the right direction.
And some Final words, now I have a Nintendo Switch with 4 games (what a shocker, I know) but I play completely offline because I hate updates, I'm done with this year, Late Marry Christmast to you guys and early happy new year. See ya next year (hopefully with new content or my end as Artist)
I know it's a long time ago that something comes from me, it is questionable that people still know me.
I am in an existential crisis, my life has changed, like many others this year, involuntarily. Things that I would rather do, now I can't do. Friends I haven't seen in ages I can only hear from a small electronic device called a cell phone. All because of my most hated word this year (even before the pandemic).
I get too frustrated about this, in a year where I should be celebrating. I've become an uncle, got a driver's license and a car, a new job, and lose all the stress of my old life. The bad stuff before has become bearable, but the nice stuff has been ruined for me. My familiar surroundings were senselessly taken away with no prospect of recovery. I asked myself several times the question "What is wrong with the humanity?". Even on the subject of driving a car in which I am already looking forward to my life is plagued by idiots who put others in danger or almost drive into me and my car becomes too to scrap. The last one is not a joke, I'm already glad that it did not happen, but it was close.
Now to the drawing itself.
The missing of my time is no longer surprising, so I'll spare you that.
I have lost my "talent" for it. It may sound absurd but I can't manage to make a good drawing anymore. I already had plans that it was my content and I would have to change it. But even then it didn't help. I try many in my freetime, nothing is good. Nothing will work. I'm frustrated about this.
I'm on a point in my life that I will give up drawing and do something other. Maybe I'll do it or not, it's no matter. I would tell you (who read this) whats going on behind the silent scene. Frustration about myself, or better now a kick for myself in the right direction.
And some Final words, now I have a Nintendo Switch with 4 games (what a shocker, I know) but I play completely offline because I hate updates, I'm done with this year, Late Marry Christmast to you guys and early happy new year. See ya next year (hopefully with new content or my end as Artist)
Thanks for the hug bro. I need it now more than yesterday. 1 hour after my Text I lost my Grandpa, it was a long day for me...