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Reflecting On 2020 And Dream Story 291
5 years ago
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Hey, how's it going? Thought I'd speak my mind and give updates on what's happening. 2020 hasn't been the worst overall year of my life (I'd say 2016 was my worst). It only sucked for me from late March to mid-August. After (and before) that, it just had a balance of ups and downs.
But when it comes to me releasing creative content, this would've been my worst year. I had a goal last year where I would set myself a schedule for what sites to visit on which days to check messages & updates, and what I would be doing on certain days. It started out fine from November 2019 to mid-March this year. But ever since this whole pandemic started, even after temporarily shutting down my aesthetics business, my work and life balance has been a complete mess. Things keep changing all the time where I don't know what's happening anymore. Hopefully things will slow down sooner than later, now that we've got the vaccines slowly rolling in.
Speaking of creative content, for the first time ever in my artist life, I've given myself the choice to refund someone for being too late on releasing a commission piece. I even asked another person (who commissioned an audio back in 2018) if he'd also like a refund (This shows how horrible my creative streak has been as of late). I know sharing this thought is random, but just thought I'd speak my mind on that matter.
So we got our puppy a couple weeks ago. She's awesome (Her name's Raven. An Aussie Shepherd-Lab-Border Collie mix) and really glad we got her, but is a stinker. She's learned some things real fast, but it'll take time till she gets out of her yappy, impatient, and 'must-chomp-everybody-and-everything' phase.
I still got the livestream idea of me doodling or working on pieces in mind. I may start off with Youtube since more people have accounts there compared to Discord. Discord's my 2nd option in case Youtube doesn't work for me. And if not Discord, then Picarto. Still unknown when this will happen, but hoping it will be soon. Stay tuned.
As for hobbies, I've been keeping myself busy with the Vergil DLC in DMCV, the Crash Bandicoot N-Sane Trilogy (I even got Crash Bandicoot 4 which I have yet to play), and reading more SCP articles. For drawing, I'd just do messy doodles occasionally (like what I posted on here just recently).
Hope you all have a safe and Happy New Year. Hope 2021 brings good for us all.
You remember Unus Annus, right? (For those of you that don't know, you probably won't get ththe first half of this dream story.) This dream's based off of it. A really bizarre and messed-up one, in fact. It was about that I starred in an Unus Annus video with Mark Fischbach (aka Markiplier) and Ethan Nestor (aka CrankGameplays). What we did for this video was test our pain tolerance by cutting parts of our bodies with different sharp tools. We were actually okay with this, laughing away and joking around, even after cutting certain areas that hurt. My worst pain was on my tongue (I actually felt it). Other areas I've done, but weren't as painful, were my nose and ear. Ethan and Mark had their ears done, Ethan had a finger done, and Mark had a thigh or upper arm and bum cheek done.
Afterward, the dream changes to where my cut wounds healed completely (no scars), and warps me to a different time and location. I'm just about to head out somewhere from some place. All of a sudden, a complete stranger (from another dream I've had before with him in it) sneaks into my car and asks to take me to a "karate class". I was about to call the police, but complied to his request, so I take him to his destination. After getting out of my car, I follow him into a mall that was connected to some underground medical area that can be accessed from a certain elevator or escalator. Turns out it wasn't a karate class, he wanted to visit the medical area to see a dying relative.
But when it comes to me releasing creative content, this would've been my worst year. I had a goal last year where I would set myself a schedule for what sites to visit on which days to check messages & updates, and what I would be doing on certain days. It started out fine from November 2019 to mid-March this year. But ever since this whole pandemic started, even after temporarily shutting down my aesthetics business, my work and life balance has been a complete mess. Things keep changing all the time where I don't know what's happening anymore. Hopefully things will slow down sooner than later, now that we've got the vaccines slowly rolling in.
Speaking of creative content, for the first time ever in my artist life, I've given myself the choice to refund someone for being too late on releasing a commission piece. I even asked another person (who commissioned an audio back in 2018) if he'd also like a refund (This shows how horrible my creative streak has been as of late). I know sharing this thought is random, but just thought I'd speak my mind on that matter.
So we got our puppy a couple weeks ago. She's awesome (Her name's Raven. An Aussie Shepherd-Lab-Border Collie mix) and really glad we got her, but is a stinker. She's learned some things real fast, but it'll take time till she gets out of her yappy, impatient, and 'must-chomp-everybody-and-everything' phase.
I still got the livestream idea of me doodling or working on pieces in mind. I may start off with Youtube since more people have accounts there compared to Discord. Discord's my 2nd option in case Youtube doesn't work for me. And if not Discord, then Picarto. Still unknown when this will happen, but hoping it will be soon. Stay tuned.
As for hobbies, I've been keeping myself busy with the Vergil DLC in DMCV, the Crash Bandicoot N-Sane Trilogy (I even got Crash Bandicoot 4 which I have yet to play), and reading more SCP articles. For drawing, I'd just do messy doodles occasionally (like what I posted on here just recently).
Hope you all have a safe and Happy New Year. Hope 2021 brings good for us all.
Dream Story 291 You remember Unus Annus, right? (For those of you that don't know, you probably won't get ththe first half of this dream story.) This dream's based off of it. A really bizarre and messed-up one, in fact. It was about that I starred in an Unus Annus video with Mark Fischbach (aka Markiplier) and Ethan Nestor (aka CrankGameplays). What we did for this video was test our pain tolerance by cutting parts of our bodies with different sharp tools. We were actually okay with this, laughing away and joking around, even after cutting certain areas that hurt. My worst pain was on my tongue (I actually felt it). Other areas I've done, but weren't as painful, were my nose and ear. Ethan and Mark had their ears done, Ethan had a finger done, and Mark had a thigh or upper arm and bum cheek done.
Afterward, the dream changes to where my cut wounds healed completely (no scars), and warps me to a different time and location. I'm just about to head out somewhere from some place. All of a sudden, a complete stranger (from another dream I've had before with him in it) sneaks into my car and asks to take me to a "karate class". I was about to call the police, but complied to his request, so I take him to his destination. After getting out of my car, I follow him into a mall that was connected to some underground medical area that can be accessed from a certain elevator or escalator. Turns out it wasn't a karate class, he wanted to visit the medical area to see a dying relative.
I'm also stuck working at the grocery store. It's nice I'm making some money and that I get to see people, but I'm not really a fan of that job. Dealing with troublesome people's so exhausting, and my elbow's giving in from the constant wiping of my station. And now that it's winter, it's gonna be horrendous driving and cleaning off my car in this weather. This winter's been mild so far, but they are calling for a lot of blizzards and/or freezing rain storms starting today.
There's supposed to be an announcement for us next week or so of what other restrictions are going to happen once things open up again. One of them is how people have to always share proof of their Covid test results before boarding a plane. And once they reach their destination, they have to quarantine themselves for 2 weeks and if they don't, they'll be forced to stay quarantined in an approved government facility.
Good luck with the puppy too! Smart breed that one so hopefully she learns to behave sooner rather than later.
Ha that is one strange dream!
In the end, I'm happier just writing what I choose to write, and letting the chips fall where they may.
2020 could have been much worse for me, but it wasn't the best year ever, by any stretch. Here's to hoping for a better 2021 for the both of us.
I even stopped accepting requests and art trades altogether since 2017 (I hear you on the requesters part. I get annoyed when people constantly ask a lot of things from me when my information's on my profile, and I'd have to repeat myself. I even had one particular individual ask a couple times why I don't accept requests, and after giving him my reason he'd message me months later and continue asking me for requests. He has stopped since last time he messaged me on Deviantart about it, but now he's eager to know exactly when I'll be submitting more of my own content, which I would often state in my journal updates or works in progress "It's unknown when this will be finished", or "this will eventually get done", or something).
And that's good, you do you. I've got a long list of my own original creations I'd like to get done first, myself (since 2017 to be precise).
And yeah, 2020's sucked for some people, while for others like me and you don't claim it as our worst year of our lives, and others had a great 2020. Then again, it's like that every year where people have different experiences. 2001 was probably my best year in my life. I was always driven to get things done, I did really well in school, I experienced a lot of fun activities, went to places I enjoyed, had more friends, and I was a lot more physically fit.