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You know..... I F'ing don't get life!!!!!
5 years ago
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I am so sick of my life. Not that I am not grateful for my life or want to die, heck no. I've worked too damn hard to survive. But I hate it because I feel like no mater how hard I work and try to be a good person I just can't get ahead. I survived cancer at a very young age only to get slapped in the face finding out that I have multiple things wrong with my body. I worked my ass off in high school and college only to never have a real job. I'm disabled, tired as hell all the time, hurt all the time, oh and guess what.... I'm only 38 going on 39 DAMNIT!!!!!!! What in the F*(& did I do to deserve this???? I would be really close to giving anything in the world to be a normal, healthy, working dude. I've always wanted to have the money and energy to work on vehicles and yet that will never happen. The damn government doesn't care about people that are truly unable to work a job. They hose people like me, and businesses don't want anything to do with me.
CRIES!!!!! I am so lonely. Sure I have my family but its not much. My sister isn't much of a people person, my niece is only 2, and my mom is getting older each year and can't do the things she used to.
Plus I have never had a girlfriend. I had a girlfriend for 2 days and we decided it wouldn't work. I WANT A GIRLFRIEND!!!!! But I'm not very trustworthy of people nor do I really know how to talk/tell if a girl is interested in me.
I'm truly sorry for ranting. I'm just at a loss for ideas and energy. I feel like I am going to be alone for the rest of my life. Never to be remembered.
CRIES!!!!! I am so lonely. Sure I have my family but its not much. My sister isn't much of a people person, my niece is only 2, and my mom is getting older each year and can't do the things she used to.
Plus I have never had a girlfriend. I had a girlfriend for 2 days and we decided it wouldn't work. I WANT A GIRLFRIEND!!!!! But I'm not very trustworthy of people nor do I really know how to talk/tell if a girl is interested in me.
I'm truly sorry for ranting. I'm just at a loss for ideas and energy. I feel like I am going to be alone for the rest of my life. Never to be remembered.
you have to believe there's someone out there for all of us. try a simple dating site/app? just be brutally honest and put yourself out there. the guy i'm luring in is in basically the same shape as us and we connected on our social ineptitude, self esteem issues, and nerdy similarities. i may not be able to help much with ideas for your lack of energy, but i definitely say put yourself out there. you never know what could be unless you try.