My Emotional support animal died in my arms and the vets could do nothing and claimed if they even tried they weren't sure it would have helped so at 10am CST .. he died, wrapped up in his favorite blanket, in my arms. I paid to have him buried or cremated since I live in an apt and I couldn't bury him.

While I want to do this myself. I .. can't hold a pen or pencil or anything and I can barely tyupe as it is as well. just typing this is making me cry after I passed out trying to stop crying after five hours.

my brain isn't working well but I do know I want to have someone draw him for me polkease ... I want ..

I will pay I just need someone to draw himn for me please. I can send pictures of him for reference. I want a picture of him to remember him by more than just memory of photos on a camera that can be damaged or deleted

If anyone knows a decenet artist that would do him justice. My 6 month old baby... Please let me know. Ud rather do it myself but I just... need to mourn for a while please.

He always greeted me every time I got home. He;d wait to be picked up and then rest on my shoulder as I moved aruond making dinner. He purred heavily when pet he would nuzzle you in the morninjg. He would sleep next to your head or pulled against your chest or even lay on your chest at night and purr to help you sleep. He had his favorite purple blankeyt that was plaid with black and purple. He had just lost his final baby canine tooth.

Every morning he'd groggily wake up and pus his way into the bathroom to sit on my lap and be hugged and held.

He'd sit on the chair facing the window to soak in sunlight while I worked from home then wait until I got home to do it all again.

He'd nuzzle my face and loved to be held and snuggled and carried around.

He was so calm when I took him outside and would hide in my backpack or under my vest. Or simply sit on my shoulder.

Even the grocery store people knew him and mentioned how adorable and well behaved he was.

I'm going to miss it and all I have is his 3 baby teeth I found and my memories and the pictures or him with his younger sister. He was a runt and I should have paid more attention,...

The vets claimed they couldn't have helped.. I mean he was prone to boughts of dehydration and we always got through that I had L-Lysine and Pedialyte and before I went to bed he was purring, more active and I thought tat was it. he was getting bettter. He was happy and making buscuits as he always loved to do. Then he curled up into my neck and fell asleep....

that's it right? Another bought of dehydration covered. he had his fluids given to him and food every few hours. He's fine right?

I wake up and he;s under the couch and he;s.. just weak and limp. and he just.. he dies, in my arms.. and the vets did nothing to help me. The most they offered was since he was a stray and I didn't know his health despite him having his vaccines he just had a form of SIDS. There was nothing they could do.

Nothing... just like I could do t ohelp or see he had more than just the dehydration. Yes I know "Its undetectable" but I feel like it wasn't SIDS I feel like if I paid more attention and didn't work 8am to 11pm and spent more time with him I ... I don't know. maybe I could have seen somethinf or helped or.. fuck man I don't know but he deserved better than me. He was a good boy. The best and I loved him with every fiber of my being until he was gone. And even then I have his collar and I want to have this art piece of him done.

SO... long drawn out story I'm sorry... but can I please just ..have help finding someone to do this for me.