Somehow I feel like this is what's going to happen when I can go out in public again.

I am thinking of you, Rikoshi.

I think I was born nostalgic. I am always missing things, although not ones that I have intentionally left behind, but rather things that have changed beyond my control like a loss of the sense of wonder and optimism I used to have.

Other things I guess I technically have a bit more control of, such as checking in on FA which, until a few months ago or so, I used to do every day. These past few weeks I just haven't had the emotional energy for it.

An exception here is that I am not nostalgic for the last four years. They have been so stressful. This last year in particular I went from having a few white hairs in my beard to it going almost all white, and it feels like I have aged 10-20 years, finally catching up with my chronological age.