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The Scary Reality
5 years ago
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Im sorry for being quiet for the past few months.
Things have been more than rough, and Ive been trying my best to keep myself together.
Ive been busting ass trying to make sure my rent could be caught up on.
This all began around june - july 2020, My mate was losing alot of hours because of the peak of
covid really taking over and everyone basically having to stay home.
we didnt worry so much since at the time we had abit of emergency savings, but we didnt know
his hours would be destroyed all throughout the rest of the year.
For that, I was taking the brunt of making sure that every bill could be paid.
in the end, we got really behind.
Around november some things picked up enough at his job that we could start paying our rent
( rent amount being 1600$ each month - Yes I know expensive, don't believe me, I have proof and yes we are looking to move in august when our lease is up )
we were paying the amount almost each 2 weeks which was running us dry , stressed and tired of feeling like we had been paying the large amount almost for 2 months to try and catch up
( Which added up more with fees ).
currently we are so close. 2500$ left.
I had a plan to have that amount by thursday -
but of course life has other plans since on Monday I had to pay my electric bill or get it turned off - 500$
and my car insurance which is 250$ - which destroyed our savings we had in order to make the amount.
got a call an hour ago of her asking for the money and if I want to begin the eviction process.
Im scared. Im fucking terrified. I would be fucking homeless, I have no where the fuck to go.
and after ive been fighting and FINALLY fucking get it down, why the fuck would I give up.
Im freaking out.
I have to come up with basically 1000$ by tomorrow. or eat shit.
Im going to try and see if I can come up with half - give them the 1500$ tomorrow and then hopefully come up with the rest by next week
but that may be pushing it , so for now, im fucking panicking.
im venting / explaining so I can at least show my reason why for silence and why im taking on and why im trying to work as quickly as possible.
I dont know what to do, I dont want to be homeless , and I dont want to give up.
what the fuck do I do..
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