I apologize that there hasn't been a post, story or image, during last month. This month has been a hectic one. I don't know how to start this journal off without being completely blunt, but I might as well let the cat out of the bag...

I failed Uni.

I didn't complete all of my subjects, not even half, and I'm trying to fight to not get precluded from Uni for two years. I am ashamed that I was stupid enough to not work through a lot of the things during last year (both work related and mental health related) because it is completely and utterly my fault that I am at this stage of my life, where I could have done so much better. I could have pushed through like last year and at least managed to pass through the second semester, but I didn't. I got stuck. I got lazy. I got anxious. And it's because of my own actions that I am trying to get back in. I contacted the Uni Preclusion Group and we are having a meeting sometime in February.

I'm now taking sleeping tablets so I can get to sleep better. The results have been mixed, sometimes I have a good night's sleep and other times, I wake up in the middle of the night just like before. I'm hoping that this medication will be alright. Unfortunately, my actual medication is unavailable where I am, so I have to go searching for some pharmacy that has the exact brand that isn't in my home town.

My older brother is still in another state, meaning that we haven't seen him for months. He sadly missed out on my younger brother's 18th birthday and his two parties. I am honestly starting to miss him more and more.

It's been stressful, but it is completely my fault that it has been stressful. Not only for me, but also for my family.