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Extended Thoughts on: Moving Forward
5 years ago
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I'm sorta tempted to start this like some YouTube apology video: give a long sigh, say "I never thought I'd have to make this", and ramble about one thing and mean the other. But you can't put audio in journals, this is something I kinda knew I'd have to do at some point, and worst of all, I'm gonna mean everything I say here.
And that is, I'm taking a break from writing. Not a long break, definitely not a permanent break... but a break.
If you've been following my journals here (and especially that Big Doomer Energy twitter thread I made a few days ago), you'll know that I've been struggling with some mental issues, namely depression stemming from C-PTSD. Things have... been not fun; that's all the detail I'll give. In order to heal, I've decided to remove everything unrelated to recovery that I can remove. That, unfortunately, includes working on commissions. Y'all have already patiently waited two months for a character; I don't want you to be just twiddling your thumbs/claws, waiting for something from me that I'm not ready to provide for you. You don't deserve that, and the people on my waitlist don't, either. Therefore, I'm removing the suspense. Don't expect anything from me for a fair bit.
This wouldn't be so hard for me even a year ago, when time between commissions could be months. But I've been incredibly lucky to have so many people here that not only appreciate my writing, but want to pay to see more of it. It's something that still surprises me, and I'm so grateful for everyone who's made this silly smut-writing thing my job. I'm about to say the Cursed Words... but 2020 was great for me, at least over here. And I have all of you to thank for that.
But I'm not gonna continue harping on this now, for fear of delving into some Suffering From Success humblebrag. What's important for this journal is that this writing gig has become my job... and I need some medical leave. It sucks to do this to the people on my waitlist, but it sucks even more for me to leave them in this waiting limbo, or worse, deliver a crap story. As for when I'll be back? I... don't really want to give a deadline for recovery, but it most assuredly won't be too long. Just long enough that people would take notice if I didn't say anything. Henceforth, this journal. When I'm ready to get back to work, you'll all be informed ASAP.
...This is usually the time when I post silly trivia and ask a question, but I think I'll leave it here (shame, I was planning to ask a question mocking how I asked the same question twice in a row, nearly word for word-- look it up!). Thanks again for your continued support.
Seeya later:
- yoshielder
And that is, I'm taking a break from writing. Not a long break, definitely not a permanent break... but a break.
If you've been following my journals here (and especially that Big Doomer Energy twitter thread I made a few days ago), you'll know that I've been struggling with some mental issues, namely depression stemming from C-PTSD. Things have... been not fun; that's all the detail I'll give. In order to heal, I've decided to remove everything unrelated to recovery that I can remove. That, unfortunately, includes working on commissions. Y'all have already patiently waited two months for a character; I don't want you to be just twiddling your thumbs/claws, waiting for something from me that I'm not ready to provide for you. You don't deserve that, and the people on my waitlist don't, either. Therefore, I'm removing the suspense. Don't expect anything from me for a fair bit.
This wouldn't be so hard for me even a year ago, when time between commissions could be months. But I've been incredibly lucky to have so many people here that not only appreciate my writing, but want to pay to see more of it. It's something that still surprises me, and I'm so grateful for everyone who's made this silly smut-writing thing my job. I'm about to say the Cursed Words... but 2020 was great for me, at least over here. And I have all of you to thank for that.
But I'm not gonna continue harping on this now, for fear of delving into some Suffering From Success humblebrag. What's important for this journal is that this writing gig has become my job... and I need some medical leave. It sucks to do this to the people on my waitlist, but it sucks even more for me to leave them in this waiting limbo, or worse, deliver a crap story. As for when I'll be back? I... don't really want to give a deadline for recovery, but it most assuredly won't be too long. Just long enough that people would take notice if I didn't say anything. Henceforth, this journal. When I'm ready to get back to work, you'll all be informed ASAP.
...This is usually the time when I post silly trivia and ask a question, but I think I'll leave it here (shame, I was planning to ask a question mocking how I asked the same question twice in a row, nearly word for word-- look it up!). Thanks again for your continued support.
Seeya later:
- yoshielder
CharlieGM
~ebikiyo
Best of luck, love. I hope your recovery is peaceful, and that you're able to get back to a good headstate.
YetAnotherSmutWriter
~yetanothersmutwriter
I'm glad ur in a place where you're able to break, rather than being forced to grind relentlessly. I hope the break is refreshing and helpful for you!
