First order of buisness, FML. I suck at relationships online, and im not interested in most of the people offline. Most people I know, and like offline kinda have issues of their own or are already in some kind of relationship. Which is fine I s'pose. But here I am, still kinda fresh outta my last relationship, and realizing: I dont know how to get a girl myself. All the one's I've been with came on to me. Worse yet im the one who ended those relationships. 's not like I dont know what I want, its more I dont know how to keep it when I have it. Well thats what I think at the very least.
So now im alone, and as such, lonely and at the same time not. I have plenty good friends, and that's all well and good, but does nothing for that other kind of loneliness. I know im not the most attractive guy but I always get the thought 'hey, I could get at least a lil compliment here and there'. I dont. Art is fine for venting and such when things get rough, but when it all comes down around you and you realize more than you wanted to accept at one time... well there's a lot of angst and stuff to sort through. and plenty of jealousy in my regards.
NOW im stuck giving my own self advice I give everyone else. Shit sucks, Get over it. and as much as I know and preach it...You can get over shit, but the stink still wafts back at you and lingers. im kinda in that position now.
More and more, I wish I knew more people, 's why I came here and even DA. But I limit my self a lot in that I dont do forums. its just so bland to me now. then I get half of myself saying, "well huh huh huh, beggars cant be choosers". and figure out how much I really am begging silently for someone. Knowing all too well that if I dont do something, chances are no one will either.


hoo. that feels a bit better. *nods* ok gonna go draw or some shiz. ttfn.