I feel for you, we share the second half of your journal but there comes a time when you have to put your foot down and get things done if you want things to get better or just sit back and watch life pass you by. Things here where are live have become exceptionally difficult with the virus, the weather lately and getting targeted by your countries over glorified so called 'president' that by the looks of things isn't doing anything good. I am hoping this summer gets better and that covid starts to go away cause I hate this stupid virus and can't stand another year of having to deal with it >.<

Hopefully things do get better!

Yeah *hugs* Also to give you some much needed advice cause everyone here seems to down play the importance of having a job ASAP is that having a job isn't just for the here and now. You are in a sense investing in yourself for when you're older and so you can retire when the time comes instead of having to work yourself till the day you're literally being lowered in the ground. Also the more experience you get sooner the easier it will be to get other jobs going into the future. When it comes to working and jobs you have to think WAYYYY past just next months rent you should be thinking long term and how well off you want to be when you're old and have no one to look after you. So for me doing it sooner is better then doing it later because every second that goes by we get older and thus have that much less time, got it??

A.) I was 22 when I got my first job, it's not as huge a deal as the older generations think it should be. Do some exploring, find what you like, and maybe get a foot in the door... but if your family is fine with you taking your time, then take your time. Volunteering really is a great way to explore, people who frequently volunteer at one thing often volunteer at other things, there are connections to be made and many ways you can go.

B.) Don't be afraid to admit to an employer that you're forgetful. We all have cellphones these days, set some reminders and start working on forming habits. They don't have to be particularly great habits but prove that you can do it, to them and to yourself.

C.) If what you've been doing isn't working, make a change. You don't have to re-write the whole program all at once, sometimes a small change in the norm can shake things up enough to feel like a difference.

D.) Venting can only get you so far. When writing a journal like this, go through it and look to see if there are better ways to phrase something. Looking at your own words often leads to realizing why you wanted to say them in the first place, and that will get you thinking about ways to solve the underlying problem... and fix a few typos.

E.) Talk to someone, if you're still in school ask a councilor. If you're out of school try a community college, they often have councilors that anyone can talk to (though it may be online this year). Having someone that knows the right questions to ask makes a huge difference.

F.) *hug-a-fluff*

I would fix those typos but I realize I may just keep it as it is just for a reminder of my state of mind at that moment. I just was out of it lmao. I'm fine now!

Thank you for the advice though!

*hug*

I'm going to be 25 this April and I've never held a job in my life, despite my best efforts, for only having 1 car and my father needing to work full-time. I then lost my grandpa and dealt with his estate for a year and a half, then Covid hit. My parents are at-risk so I must wait further.

My point is, life happens. Don't blame yourself for circumstance. Just keep doing your best and never give up.

Aw... I'm sorry

I'll def keep trying. Wont give up

Life will change! Ever heard it? It's from Persona 5 and it's really quite true.

I shall hopeeee