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Goodbye. My journey came to an end
Jun 16, 2020 07:36 PM
Hi.
Today i want to give a really important news. And is not a good one.
As you can read from the title, yes. My journey came to end.
What it means? It means that i will no longer commission anything new from now on.
Have i did everything i planned? No, but right now is not a problem anymore, cause i have completely lost the reason to keep commissioning artists and continue my characters story.
So, if you are one of my watchers, this is the end of the book, and i don't know if i will start a new one and when i will start it.
I have still some commissions to recieve, so you will see me posting something, but once the queue would be empty, it will stay like that for a long time. If not for ever.
The profile will still remain open and accessible. I will only use it to watch my artists submissions like i did before. And if someone wants to put one of my chars in their commissions, feel free to ask, and i will repost it in my gallery. But nothing more.
It was good since it lasted. It all started in late 2017 and in all this time, i met a lot of artists that made awesome commissions for me. But now i will have to tell you all a goodbye
Firestorm3 wants to thank you all for the support you gave me. Every single comment, gift and favorite was really appreciated, and would be even after it will end. I will never thank you a lot for that.
So thank you and GOODBYE!
and this will also be my last...
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Goodbye commission and updates
Aug 23, 2020 10:45 PM
As i've said, i will no longer order commissions.
I've change my mind and i will not till i have some new purposes and motivation.
In the last weeks i thought a lot and more time has passed, the more i realized that i have nothing left to tell you with my characters.
So come to the conclusion to give you the "Grand Finale" commission.
As a some sort of story or film, i will end my adventure with this last commission. Is like a some sort of gift from me to thank you all for the support.
As this is the Grand Finale, there would be lot of hidden messages that lead to huge and important changes.
Actually what happen it's already written somewhere in the profile, hidden in a description.
I know that i just wrote something similar, but i stupidly delete the journal -.-"
So i've written it again
UPDATES:
Yes, i'm still up with the idea of moving to Japan in the next two years. I'be bought some books in order to start learning the language. I also realized that here in Italy i'm only wasting my time and talents so, now i'm more than always motivated to put an end to it, starting from scratch and get back in the game, signing into a university in Japan and accomplish my degree as a mechanical engineer.
For many years and even today i keep living my life with the mindset of "Why wasting my time and efforts if i can reach the same goal of the others with the absolute minimum efforts?"
I passed the final exam without even studying a single hour. The only thing i did was using ten minutes to prepare my national oral exam. And i have graduated with a 72/100 (and 3 points got dedcuted because the teacher was a total incapable).
To sum up, Yes.
I still want to leave Italy and go living in Japan.
Who knows. Maybe i will find more motivations and purposes to start ordering commission again.
Life goal found
Oct 4, 2020 09:57 AM
Hiya all.
In the last few days i kept thinking a lot before sleeping, like usual, but this time about something different...
"Why i'm here? And what will my life goal be?".
At first, i thought that i will never have found a solution or an answer to that question. But with all my surprise, i've found it. And here is my solution.
Humans spend almost all their life without enjoying it. Or better. They will start only when it's late, at 65/70 years, and with life expectation of 90 years.
If we analyze it better, from 0 to 5/6 years old, you would not remember almost anything.
From 5/6 to 18, you will study to be an adult human, with the false promise to have fun after the graduation.
From 18 to 65/70 you are forced to work in order to live.
And lastly, from 70 till the end you can enjoy your life.
For me, this is a waste of our lifes and it's unacceptable.
We live only once and we what we do is waste more than 3/4 of it.
Here is where i got the idea and found my goal.
In the past, lots of people wasted their time for a better future and without them, we will not have been at this point.
Now it's my turn and, all i want is to let people live their lifes like every day would be the last.
Work would be an option, a choice, and not an obligation. Everything is free and we will only have to worry about living our life.
It's an impossible dream? Yes, but also flying and going to space was impossible at first so, i will make this impossible dream, real.
If you want spin-offs
Dec 2, 2020 10:07 PM
Hiya all.
As you well know and you can see, i'm not posting new commissions (except for the ones that artists still owe me).
With that said and verified, i want inform you all that if you want to still see commission with my characters, those are the only two way possible:
1) Paying a full commission by your own, with one or more of my characters and notify me.
2) Making small donations that i will exclusively use to make commissions.
That's completely up to you. I'm absolutely not asking for money. It's up at your pure discretion :3
At the moment, despite i'm preparing the character for a new (but very similar) story, i've not changed my mind.
I've only laid the ground for if and when i will come back.
Down below you can find the link to donate or stuffs. The same link is also in my profile page
Shattered dreams
Jan 10, 2021 04:48 PM
I want to leave...
Leave everything behind and disappear, leaving no trace of me and starting a new life.
But like a bound ghost with regrets, i'm not able to leave.
Bound to this country due to financial and cultural lack.
It's hard to live in a place that you don't like and that don't take care of you.
It's hard to live in a house where your own parents didn't and doesn't show any affection to you.
It's hard to live without knowing what getting loved means. What affection is...
It's hard... really hard when you start thinking and counting at all the dreams that got shattered...
Leaving you with no motivation and the fear that the next dream you would build, will be shattered too.
It's hard... and i don't have infinite determination...
One day i will probably give up, and i don't want to unlock that end path
How funny it's life...
Jan 31, 2021 10:49 AM
Life it's very funny at times.
But not in the funny way.
How i planned to end my characters story, it's happening in the real life at my mother family, a little bit different, but the substance it's the same.
What a funny fluke uh?
I'm getting tired of this.
A lot...
Time has come. First step
Jun 27, 2021 12:19 PM
From today, 27 June 2021, i will officially dropout from commissioning artists.
I don't know if and when i will return in the business, but at them moment, that's my decision.
This means that from now on you will see posting the owed commissions from the artists and then stop
I NEED a psychologist...
Aug 17, 2021 11:46 PM
I've started noticing strange new habits and behaviours in April 2020, during the Covid lockdown.
From that months onward, my habits and behaviours kept changing and changing, getting worser as the days kept passing. I started getting stressed more frequently and i started losing patience over nothing and more frequently (and thrust me. I'm a very patience person).
Also my optimism and cheerfulness started getting weaker and weaker.
And then, from the last 10 months, I've noticed that i'm always down in the dumps, pessimistic, nostalgic, sad, stressed, irritated, sluggish and unmotivated.
I live with this feelings every single day and I'm not able to get out of this.
I also tracked the dark days/periods for over a year, and those are the results:
Days passed = 410
Dark days = 336
That's not normal....
It's not normal that i've felt 'happy' for only 20% of the time.
That's the reason why i decided to look for a psychologist.
I have the feelings that if i will keep living like this, my mental state and health will start deteriorate, till i will reach the point of no return.
And i don't want this....
I will find a psychologist and put an end on this.
This must end...
I want to finally feel better....
I NEED to finally feel better...
Jun 16, 2020 07:36 PM
Hi.
Today i want to give a really important news. And is not a good one.
As you can read from the title, yes. My journey came to end.
What it means? It means that i will no longer commission anything new from now on.
Have i did everything i planned? No, but right now is not a problem anymore, cause i have completely lost the reason to keep commissioning artists and continue my characters story.
So, if you are one of my watchers, this is the end of the book, and i don't know if i will start a new one and when i will start it.
I have still some commissions to recieve, so you will see me posting something, but once the queue would be empty, it will stay like that for a long time. If not for ever.
The profile will still remain open and accessible. I will only use it to watch my artists submissions like i did before. And if someone wants to put one of my chars in their commissions, feel free to ask, and i will repost it in my gallery. But nothing more.
It was good since it lasted. It all started in late 2017 and in all this time, i met a lot of artists that made awesome commissions for me. But now i will have to tell you all a goodbye
Firestorm3 wants to thank you all for the support you gave me. Every single comment, gift and favorite was really appreciated, and would be even after it will end. I will never thank you a lot for that.
So thank you and GOODBYE!
and this will also be my last...
end of line
Goodbye commission and updates
Aug 23, 2020 10:45 PM
As i've said, i will no longer order commissions.
I've change my mind and i will not till i have some new purposes and motivation.
In the last weeks i thought a lot and more time has passed, the more i realized that i have nothing left to tell you with my characters.
So come to the conclusion to give you the "Grand Finale" commission.
As a some sort of story or film, i will end my adventure with this last commission. Is like a some sort of gift from me to thank you all for the support.
As this is the Grand Finale, there would be lot of hidden messages that lead to huge and important changes.
Actually what happen it's already written somewhere in the profile, hidden in a description.
I know that i just wrote something similar, but i stupidly delete the journal -.-"
So i've written it again
UPDATES:
Yes, i'm still up with the idea of moving to Japan in the next two years. I'be bought some books in order to start learning the language. I also realized that here in Italy i'm only wasting my time and talents so, now i'm more than always motivated to put an end to it, starting from scratch and get back in the game, signing into a university in Japan and accomplish my degree as a mechanical engineer.
For many years and even today i keep living my life with the mindset of "Why wasting my time and efforts if i can reach the same goal of the others with the absolute minimum efforts?"
I passed the final exam without even studying a single hour. The only thing i did was using ten minutes to prepare my national oral exam. And i have graduated with a 72/100 (and 3 points got dedcuted because the teacher was a total incapable).
To sum up, Yes.
I still want to leave Italy and go living in Japan.
Who knows. Maybe i will find more motivations and purposes to start ordering commission again.
Life goal found
Oct 4, 2020 09:57 AM
Hiya all.
In the last few days i kept thinking a lot before sleeping, like usual, but this time about something different...
"Why i'm here? And what will my life goal be?".
At first, i thought that i will never have found a solution or an answer to that question. But with all my surprise, i've found it. And here is my solution.
Humans spend almost all their life without enjoying it. Or better. They will start only when it's late, at 65/70 years, and with life expectation of 90 years.
If we analyze it better, from 0 to 5/6 years old, you would not remember almost anything.
From 5/6 to 18, you will study to be an adult human, with the false promise to have fun after the graduation.
From 18 to 65/70 you are forced to work in order to live.
And lastly, from 70 till the end you can enjoy your life.
For me, this is a waste of our lifes and it's unacceptable.
We live only once and we what we do is waste more than 3/4 of it.
Here is where i got the idea and found my goal.
In the past, lots of people wasted their time for a better future and without them, we will not have been at this point.
Now it's my turn and, all i want is to let people live their lifes like every day would be the last.
Work would be an option, a choice, and not an obligation. Everything is free and we will only have to worry about living our life.
It's an impossible dream? Yes, but also flying and going to space was impossible at first so, i will make this impossible dream, real.
If you want spin-offs
Dec 2, 2020 10:07 PM
Hiya all.
As you well know and you can see, i'm not posting new commissions (except for the ones that artists still owe me).
With that said and verified, i want inform you all that if you want to still see commission with my characters, those are the only two way possible:
1) Paying a full commission by your own, with one or more of my characters and notify me.
2) Making small donations that i will exclusively use to make commissions.
That's completely up to you. I'm absolutely not asking for money. It's up at your pure discretion :3
At the moment, despite i'm preparing the character for a new (but very similar) story, i've not changed my mind.
I've only laid the ground for if and when i will come back.
Down below you can find the link to donate or stuffs. The same link is also in my profile page
---> Support me <---Shattered dreams
Jan 10, 2021 04:48 PM
I want to leave...
Leave everything behind and disappear, leaving no trace of me and starting a new life.
But like a bound ghost with regrets, i'm not able to leave.
Bound to this country due to financial and cultural lack.
It's hard to live in a place that you don't like and that don't take care of you.
It's hard to live in a house where your own parents didn't and doesn't show any affection to you.
It's hard to live without knowing what getting loved means. What affection is...
It's hard... really hard when you start thinking and counting at all the dreams that got shattered...
Leaving you with no motivation and the fear that the next dream you would build, will be shattered too.
It's hard... and i don't have infinite determination...
One day i will probably give up, and i don't want to unlock that end path
How funny it's life...
Jan 31, 2021 10:49 AM
Life it's very funny at times.
But not in the funny way.
How i planned to end my characters story, it's happening in the real life at my mother family, a little bit different, but the substance it's the same.
What a funny fluke uh?
I'm getting tired of this.
A lot...
Time has come. First step
Jun 27, 2021 12:19 PM
From today, 27 June 2021, i will officially dropout from commissioning artists.
I don't know if and when i will return in the business, but at them moment, that's my decision.
This means that from now on you will see posting the owed commissions from the artists and then stop
I NEED a psychologist...
Aug 17, 2021 11:46 PM
I've started noticing strange new habits and behaviours in April 2020, during the Covid lockdown.
From that months onward, my habits and behaviours kept changing and changing, getting worser as the days kept passing. I started getting stressed more frequently and i started losing patience over nothing and more frequently (and thrust me. I'm a very patience person).
Also my optimism and cheerfulness started getting weaker and weaker.
And then, from the last 10 months, I've noticed that i'm always down in the dumps, pessimistic, nostalgic, sad, stressed, irritated, sluggish and unmotivated.
I live with this feelings every single day and I'm not able to get out of this.
I also tracked the dark days/periods for over a year, and those are the results:
Days passed = 410
Dark days = 336
That's not normal....
It's not normal that i've felt 'happy' for only 20% of the time.
That's the reason why i decided to look for a psychologist.
I have the feelings that if i will keep living like this, my mental state and health will start deteriorate, till i will reach the point of no return.
And i don't want this....
I will find a psychologist and put an end on this.
This must end...
I want to finally feel better....
I NEED to finally feel better...
