I looked in the mirror today and could have sworn I have some gray hairs now. That's how bad things have gotten.

Sorry, digression.

When I first got into this, it was because people like Fred, Sarah, Ari, and Gemma inspired me. To my mind and way of thinking, babyfur art was about worshipping what was good and what was true before the adult world corrupted it. Found especially moved me deeply all those years ago. Sarah even more so. More than she will likely ever truly know. I loved pretending to be a father very much. I still do want kids more than anything! But I digress again.

And now?

I have seen way too many genuinely awful people invade the fandom and do horrible, horrible things. Deviants, pedophiles, and worse. I have watched too many of the people I love die or go insane. With Sarah gone especially, I only have so much inspiration. And what Milo apparently did (I really, really, really hope its not true,) I have myself wondering if I'm not being honest with myself here.

I'm not leaving yet, or really anytime soon. But dishonesty of any type has become a luxury I can no longer afford.