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16 years ago
I wants my Draco.
The distance between us has never been much of a problem. He's only like a 40 min to an hour drive away depending on traffic. It's not much, but right now... It feels a world away. I only get to see him like once a week, for like 24-48 hours. When I'm with him time flies, I love being with him. But our goodbyes are always the hardest part. The week that passes by, with me waitin to see him again goes so slow.
But once I see him again.... It's like I never left.
The distance is both good and bad, we arnt stuck up each others butt bugging each other, and it makes seeing each other again that much more special. But right now I need him. I'm not being all emo, or depressed or what ever the hell people want to call it.
I just want him to be next to me, his warmth, his smile.
He the best thing that's happened to me, in a really long time. It gives me a reason to keep going, to keep smiling, to keep going day by day. I love being with him. It just makes me all happy inside, like a light finally switched on and is pushing away the darkness.
I can't see him for over 2 weeks, and its not even been 48 hours since I last saw him..... How am I going to last another 14 days if I even get to see him then. It makes me all mopey and sad.. And I hate feeling like this. Since I meet him I've never felt this bad, like there is a lil nagging thought at the back of my head that I won't see him again.
And that thought scares me..... I don't want to think about that.
I can cuddle my lil toy poodle spike, or my standard poodle abby, even my anti-social cat Isis. But that happy doggie can do way of life just doesn't give me the smile it used to.
I just want him.... I want to see his face, see his smile.. I want to be with him so that light inside me can shine brighter than ever, that I know I'm not alone.
sometimes this big confusing and mean world can get to ya, and it deff can bring ya down. I'm feeling it.... And I hate it.
The distance between us has never been much of a problem. He's only like a 40 min to an hour drive away depending on traffic. It's not much, but right now... It feels a world away. I only get to see him like once a week, for like 24-48 hours. When I'm with him time flies, I love being with him. But our goodbyes are always the hardest part. The week that passes by, with me waitin to see him again goes so slow.
But once I see him again.... It's like I never left.
The distance is both good and bad, we arnt stuck up each others butt bugging each other, and it makes seeing each other again that much more special. But right now I need him. I'm not being all emo, or depressed or what ever the hell people want to call it.
I just want him to be next to me, his warmth, his smile.
He the best thing that's happened to me, in a really long time. It gives me a reason to keep going, to keep smiling, to keep going day by day. I love being with him. It just makes me all happy inside, like a light finally switched on and is pushing away the darkness.
I can't see him for over 2 weeks, and its not even been 48 hours since I last saw him..... How am I going to last another 14 days if I even get to see him then. It makes me all mopey and sad.. And I hate feeling like this. Since I meet him I've never felt this bad, like there is a lil nagging thought at the back of my head that I won't see him again.
And that thought scares me..... I don't want to think about that.
I can cuddle my lil toy poodle spike, or my standard poodle abby, even my anti-social cat Isis. But that happy doggie can do way of life just doesn't give me the smile it used to.
I just want him.... I want to see his face, see his smile.. I want to be with him so that light inside me can shine brighter than ever, that I know I'm not alone.
sometimes this big confusing and mean world can get to ya, and it deff can bring ya down. I'm feeling it.... And I hate it.
But...
I seriously feel like I'm cry myself to sleep. Typed this laying in bed, n now I just feel like crying. And I like almost NEVER cry... Unless I'm due for for a good cry I dunno.....
But I can feel the tears... Their hanging on the edge waiting
And I kinda can not, not think about him. Everything reminds me of him. I work in a meijers in the fashion and infant department. So I deal with all the baby food, toys, bottles, pacis, and most of all diapers.
So something always has me thinking about him and giving me a smile at work. But that smile doesn't last long when I know I won't be able to see him after work or when I will see him again.
*sigh* sometimes life sucks