I just don't know what to say anymore. Things aren't getting better from what I've been seeing with my own eyes. And I've learned that most likely, I won't be able to get a vaccination shot until at least June.

Then, there's my old man. There will never be a day of happiness in my grandmother's house, until either he gets psychiatric care, or until he kicks the bucket. Unfortunately, I see option 2 coming before anything.

So, now the question remains. How do you get help for someone who refuses it? To make matters worse, my grandmother finally admitted to me that she is not mentally strong enough to see him "locked away". So after hearing his begging and pleading for money, and rides to the liquor store, she eventually gives in, and bends to his needs. He's already been spoken to a few times more by law enforcement about panhandling around for money.

I, myself, told him point blank to his face that I no longer want anything to do with him, until he gets the medical attention he needs. That was a while ago, and so far, he has not done anything to get that help.

I don't know what to do anymore. It's got to the point I have to hide my grandmother's keys to discourage her need to answer his crying. I can't do this anymore, not alone anyway. I've become more violent and frustrated towards him. And I fear that one of these days, I'm going to do something that's going to A.) Put him in the hospital, and B.) Me behind bars. I really don't want to reach that point. But at the same time, I don't want to see my grandmother dealing with his toxic habits.

I'm sorry to all who have seen me post this before. If anyone knows of anything that'll help, please let me know.

That's about it for now.

Take care all.