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4 years ago
If I could start my life from scratch,
If I could take away the pain of my past,
If I had another chance i would do just that,
I'd give anything jus' to go right back...
If I could take away the pain of my past,
If I had another chance i would do just that,
I'd give anything jus' to go right back...
So if you've read my previous journal, I had some issues with my debit card and rent was due by the end of the week but everything has been sorted out, transfered the money for the rent to my bro's account and also did a dispute for the charges on my card that obviously wasn't me. Should get the money stolen from me in a few days and my card will arrive by next week.
Now one thing I didn't tell everyone is that I'm currently letting my sister and her family stay in my apartment now due to the damage on my mom's house from that winter storm that hit the US last week. It seems like they'll have to be here for a few weeks which wouldn't be so bad if I could get some damn sleep around here. Having a 1 year old niece and a 6 year old nephew isn't the quietest of company, especially when you have to sleep in the day while they are up in a very tiny and now cramp apartment. That and my nephew wants to play all day when he isn't doing schoolwork which is understandable but I just don't get very much me time now and it just sucks to turn him down since he has very little to do in here other than play on the xbox.
Also aparently I'm considered a mentally disabled person, didn't know Major Depressive Disorder (Clinical Depression) was classified as a disability so that kinda has me bummed out to know.
TLDR: Rent is paid, new debit card is coming, a whole family is now stuck in my apartment so no rest for me and I'm mentally disabled.
Now one thing I didn't tell everyone is that I'm currently letting my sister and her family stay in my apartment now due to the damage on my mom's house from that winter storm that hit the US last week. It seems like they'll have to be here for a few weeks which wouldn't be so bad if I could get some damn sleep around here. Having a 1 year old niece and a 6 year old nephew isn't the quietest of company, especially when you have to sleep in the day while they are up in a very tiny and now cramp apartment. That and my nephew wants to play all day when he isn't doing schoolwork which is understandable but I just don't get very much me time now and it just sucks to turn him down since he has very little to do in here other than play on the xbox.
Also aparently I'm considered a mentally disabled person, didn't know Major Depressive Disorder (Clinical Depression) was classified as a disability so that kinda has me bummed out to know.
TLDR: Rent is paid, new debit card is coming, a whole family is now stuck in my apartment so no rest for me and I'm mentally disabled.
But oh boy, the fact your family now has to be with you, I'm guessing where they live their power grid is still out? Not to mention, considering that you have to deal with having 2 little kids, I know how you feel, It gets really tiring Real FAST, because I have 2 little brothers myself and believe me it's tiring as HELL, especially when they're all hyper and running around the house like crazy. But I understand as well, they're kids and just bored and need something to entertain themselves.
Also, the fact you have Major Depressive disorder, it's sad to hear you're suffering with it, but hey I just want to be honest and say this but, I pray for you and I KNOW you're strong to pull through! I myself deal with Asperger's, but at the same time I try not to let it hold me back as a person, and I hope you'll be able to pull through, Buddy.
That's all I had to say, I hope the following weeks will turn out better for you, Much love to you my friend, and may the warmth of March bring happy days to you!
As for the family and their house, it's not the power that's the problem, a few of the pipes burst and one of them caused the ceiling to partially collapse in my nephew's room. The water damage was significant and due to sitting water being there for some time, it's unhealthy. While the insurance gets to work fixing the damages in that room as well as my sister's room and a part of my mom's they'll be staying with me and my bro. But yeah it's a battle to get some rest, will be for the next few weeks anyways. >.<
Thanks for the vote of confidence and for caring about my well being. I kinda figured I had something wrong up there but I didn't know it actually was something that qualified me as disabled so I was just shocked to learn about that. I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for over a decade and a half, I'm used to it but I do need to get help when I can for it. As you said, you don't let Asperger's hold you back and expressing yourself to the best of your ability and I won't let this hinder me either...well as much as I can I guess lol.
I hope things are going ok for you as well and I again I appreciate the kind words buddy!
Oh dear, the fact they had to deal with water damage, sounds like some of my neighbors around my apartment complex a few of which had the unfortunate case of their pipes busting and causing some apartments to flood, and yeah it's not good at all for them to stay where not only there's stagnated water but also where Mold & Mildew growth would start to occur. I would hope that they actually manage to fix the busted pipes & clean up as soon as possible especially because you're probably going to find it hard to get some proper shut-eye.
You're very welcome for the confidence, I know you maybe wouldn't consider us being exact "friends" yet, but I just wanted to know that I always have good faith & confidence in you, and I totally know how you felt to discover that you weren't exactly "normal" it feels awful, I've been through that situation before, so I totally understand, but at the same time I'm glad you'll try to not your Anxiety hold you back, I have confidence in you!
As for me, I'm still a bit of a Lazy bastard (Haven't gotten into even making a sketch yet, Hahaha) with drawing but as for me I've been doing very well emotionally-speaking, and you're very welcome once again!
Yeah water damage ain't no joke and it ruined a bunch of stuff in my nephew's room as well as my sisters. Took a few hours to remove every thing from the rooms and throw it out for the trash people to pick up, wasn't fun and rather disheartening to see such damage done. But yeah til it's fixed, I'll have to share the apartment with my sibling and her family for a few weeks though they are trying their best not to be too much of a hinderance and is helping keep the apartment clean. ^^
You are far to kind man and I think we are friends! I haven't had much of a chance to add you elsewhere and what not but your support and comments do make me happy to see! Well I knew I wasn't normal due to the unusual thoughts and just my thought process in general but I didn't know I'd be actually classified as that, was a real shocker but I've always been a person to not really care if someone has special needs or is extremely unique. I try and treat everyone the same regardless of background, health or mental needs, everyone are equal in my eyes and I don't just judge on appearance alone. The Anxiety is definitely the main issue with me trying to be social, if I can fix or make it more bareable then it will make it easier to keep and make new friends so I'll be working on it for sure. ^^
I'm a master procrastinator so I know how it goes but I'm sure you'll do fine, you got heart so if you just stick with it, you'll get to where you want to eventually! Just it may take some time but never give up! Glad to hear you are doing fine buddy and I appreciate all that you do. :3
Also about the depression I never knew that til now so oof.
Yeah I tend to keep my issues to myself for the most part and rarely share them out in the open like this. I'm just feel like people would think I'm doing this for pity or attention so I try not to make it a habit of telling everything that goes on in my life. But yeah depression has had me by the balls even before I joined the fandom and I guess anxiety decided to tag team me as well.