I've been in a bad headspace until my 27th birthday (02/16) I opened myself up and I'm growing with my old habits.

I'm ashamed of how much of a sex pest I was. Whether it was overt or not, all my NSFW art was me trying to get ppl to jerk it to us and with us, which was our way to inflate our ego in lieu of self confidence. Hence why I fell into unsavory crowds and tried to appease anybody who wanted their fetish appealed to. Which meant digging and digging into that grey zone. I don't want to get into all of what I've done and tried to get myself involved with. To anybody I've hurt, I'm sorry and know that me saying sorry is kinda worthless in the face of all my nsfw art staying up, but I'm currently debating on what to do vis a vis all that stuff. Ultimately, I'd like a do-over, but I don't want to like. Reset from scratch. Not to mention, I feel like if I remade my account, all of my stuff would come back to bite me. Like, people who don't want to see me already have my accounts blocked. I don't want to accidentally show up in their feeds and dredge up all those old memories.

Right now, I'm keeping everything that isn't immediately problematic or self-destructive up as a testament to how far I've come. I can't just hide who I am like I didn't do these awful things. I can put up a front, but ultimately my art is incredibly personal and revealing of my selves, so people could just read into my art and be like, "Oh. Okay, so you're still dealing with all this weird shit, I'm gonna go over here and stay awway from you ha ha ha" Ultimately, I'm karmically surprised that only one person has called me out (for drawing incest and a doodle of Isabelle holding an "incest rights sign", yeah bad look), because I used to have a lot of friends who were vehemently into calling people out.

NSFW drawings I post aren't going to focus on taboo kinks anymore. Gore, snuff, and horror are exceptions, cuz I find them to be great ways to express my feelings of anxiety. Sexual horror snuff and gore will all be consensual cuz there's enough noncon gore out there already. Pee, feet, musk, not paws, exhibitionism, macro, micro, hyper, drugs, hypno, consenting degradation, all that will still be drawn by me once in a while. Sex is going to probably take a backseat though.