- The Bad News -

I will not be moving to New Hampshire...me and a few of my roommates were all looking for places there but they were so expensive and so we decided to move to Louisiana state. I was able to tell my family but when I finally told my mom and stepdad...they instantly got mad and told me “No!” and calling me a liar all along, even when I told them it was the last minute thing. But they forced me that I will stay or else they would beat me. And then my boyfriend and one of my roommates got on a call and defended me and had my back telling her off. But they were still dead set finding a placing for me here and I had no say in it.

I will be completely honest with you all, I do not like my mom personally, I’m even really scared of her. She’s always lectured me when I do something like form an opinion about her and her toxic attitude even when I don’t give her the answer she wanted, she even told me never to defend myself or get mad at her at all and used all the thing she’s done for me as a way to guilt trip me into giving in, even when I had a reason to be mad at her, and one time she told me to hold my tongue and threatened to beat the shit out of me when I told her I was mad. Not to mention she told my boyfriend and my roommate off for having my back.

I don’t know if my mom is extremely abusive to me or I’m just too sensitive about it, I’ll let you all decide. But I did try my hardest to love my mom because she’s family...but if she is family why does she feel like she HAS to control me. She even talked bad shit behind my boyfriend’s back, after everything nice she said to him. I can’t forgive my mom for hurting the people I love here, and I will never forgive her for that, no matter what people say about it.

- Good News -
However I do have a bit of good news. My and a friend went to Quincy and found an amazing place, and so we tried to sign up to hopefully apply to rent a house for a year, and then when it’s done, I’ll move down to Louisiana State and hopefully I’ll be far far away from her.