Guys, I ... I'm actually very embarrassed to write this and tell you, but somehow I need to declare myself. I am still alive, it just so happened that I had a nervous breakdown and now I am struggling with its consequences.
I am trying to get back to normal work, but so far everything is going downhill and my apathy does not want to go away. I really try and I'm glad you are so patient.
I love you, do not be sad <3