So Single again. He lied to me about some serious stuff and faked documentation and then always was annoying me with wanting me to draw art for him of us but then as an artist himself never would draw anything of us together and he was actually really toxic and had red flags I never actually realized were there until I started to lose friends and work. So because of him I lost a few friends and I lost some viewers and stuff like that and a few art jobs but... I'm single again. He hacked into my discord as well and it took over a week to try to get everything back and now its been nearly 2 months with constant drinking but with how he acted and everything I feel like I am getting better after binge drinking every night and still working the next day.
Life goes on and just as I am here, I exist and I will be on my way.
a much less toxic person that has known me irl and online and supported me and been a friend of three years has expressed interest in one night of us both being drunk and my ranting and him just blurting it out as we were passing out and so, its rocky but we're taking it slow to see if maybe I would be willing to date him.
He knows the entire situation and how scared I am obviously. I mean I just got out of a nigh two year relationship with someone and we already set ground rules and everything, and met in person with physical proof that I checked to see if it was doctored which he allowed because of my past.
he was patient as we checked each other's phones and history with what we said, and having him sleep next to me had me not wake up once through the nights he stayed.
Even after I hurt my neck he was there and helping me with that and carrying things and helping pay for our tickets and meals and stuff, with a little huffing because I demanded I pay half lol.
My cats adore him and he accepts my snake and scorpion, as long as they are in their cage. lol
So .. despite losing some friends and stuff, and a lot of motivation and going into a depressive episode, I realized a while ago something was wrong and now I just, exist. Commissions will be back and open. But be aware because of my boughts of depression and now full time job and still holding down the other job AND wanting to stream on twitch to gather a following for my gaming, turn outs will be longer than a week or two than usual because wed and thurs are my only days off that I don't get out of work and home before 11pm and waking up at like 10am.
My prices will be adjusted but will stay pretty cheap because its not going to be used to live off of anymore.
This is a lot of information no one cares about except the people that want to see me suffer and fail. But... I exist.
I am still here.
I am strong
I have a job that has let me stay on my own, no room mates for like, 9 months now. Support myself even if its a bit close, get a new phone, new friends, new places I want to visit.
And I will be saving to hopefully start trying to cons and stuff once I am vaccinated and they allow me to be and conventions come back into play.
So don't really expect a lot of "DESPERATE NEED MONEY NOW" YCHs anymore but I will still do them none the less if you'd all like.
Appreciate it if you made it this far and you aren't a person to laugh at me for my stupidity in loving someone and not seeing the red flags until its too late but hey. I'm just an artist online. You don't know me, I don't know you. And sometimes... that's all you'd like it to be and there's nothing wrong with that so sorry for making you read this haha.
Thank you for staying.
Thank you for the follows/watches guys the favs... they mean the world to me and one reason I keep trying to do some type of art.
So my bird and poss are single in future art so if I make ych of them then yes, you can certainly buy a slot. :p