I've been dealing with some burnout the last couple months and I've mostly been working on a select few commissions during this time so I can still pay the bills, and I apologize for not opening commissions up to the public.

That said, I'm also dealing with a lot of life changing stuff recently. I'm in the process of getting things ready for a surgery I'm planning on having either later this year or early next, and it's taking longer than I had hoped it would. I'm also dealing with a bad breakup and trying to manage those feelings while living in the other bedroom (I can't afford to move out, I don't want to live with my mom, and they're still very much my best friends despite everything).

Also I dealt with a medical emergency last week and ended up getting laparoscopic surgery for appendicitis on Friday, after two days of increasing pain and then 15 hours in the ED. I usually have a high pain tolerance but this had me curled up in bed crying.. I was terrified the whole night - I've never had an emergency like this before and never had surgery beyond getting my wisdom teeth taken out over ten years ago.. Like people die from this. Luckily it didn't rupture but apparently looked bad, so I'm glad I didn't wait until morning like I was planning on..

It hurts to move, it hurts to sit, it hurts to lay down.. My body just hurts lol. But I can't sit down for hours at a time because of risk of blood-clots and I can't hold my tablet because part of it goes against my stomach (tiny desk), so I physically can't work on art right now. The doc said for at least a month I can't really do anything like housework or lifting more than 10lbs.. Not that I want to - I didn't know how much I used my stomach muscles until now. I hate feeling useless and I feel guilty having my friends take care of me, all things considered.

So yeah, lots of shit happening all at once and I can't keep up with everything. I'm sorry >: