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Please read me! {life update and top surgery}
4 years ago
Hey there!
i know its been a while since you heard from me, and uh,,, my bad. things have been a liiiiiitle rough for me with uni and life in general! but! hopefully i can start posting again.
As the title states, im saving for top surgery! im hoping to get it after my senior year of uni before my next year of EMT training which will be more rigorous. My current goal is $6.5k as my insurance coveres quite a bit of my surgery (hopefully,, thats what i was told by my surgeon im still doing some research on that)
anyways, im gonna start taking commissions and making adopts frequently so i can get on the road to finally being me!
While i mostly dont mind binding, i cant do the things i love anymore. running is hard, swimming is an absolute no, and in general active things are not the best for me. i get winded quickly, and sometimes i genuinely cant breathe. I over heat very fast, and i live in a very hot state, and my binders really dont help me at all.
When im with my partner, i sleep with my binder on as the anxiety and fear of him seeing my chest is unreal. i cant look at myself in the mirror without feeling disgusted. Showering is even hard, i wear a binder there too.
i cannot stay in my apartment when i have surgery, i will be staying in a hotel so my parents cant find me. my mother is extremely transphobic and will barate me after she finds out ive had surgery and make it hell for me to recover. my partner and i have been looking at hotels in my city where i can relax and not have to worry about her finding me. my location will only be told to a select few people (close friends, my partner (obv) and my sister)
i am too a point where i cannot continue having a quality life without my chest removed, so, If you can, please spread the word to all platforms possible. im not a very big artist, so i know this wont be easy or quick at all, but i hope within about a year i can get there. i just have to keep hoping. that things will turn out.
thank you all so much for reading! have a great day/night <3
i know its been a while since you heard from me, and uh,,, my bad. things have been a liiiiiitle rough for me with uni and life in general! but! hopefully i can start posting again.
As the title states, im saving for top surgery! im hoping to get it after my senior year of uni before my next year of EMT training which will be more rigorous. My current goal is $6.5k as my insurance coveres quite a bit of my surgery (hopefully,, thats what i was told by my surgeon im still doing some research on that)
anyways, im gonna start taking commissions and making adopts frequently so i can get on the road to finally being me!
While i mostly dont mind binding, i cant do the things i love anymore. running is hard, swimming is an absolute no, and in general active things are not the best for me. i get winded quickly, and sometimes i genuinely cant breathe. I over heat very fast, and i live in a very hot state, and my binders really dont help me at all.
When im with my partner, i sleep with my binder on as the anxiety and fear of him seeing my chest is unreal. i cant look at myself in the mirror without feeling disgusted. Showering is even hard, i wear a binder there too.
i cannot stay in my apartment when i have surgery, i will be staying in a hotel so my parents cant find me. my mother is extremely transphobic and will barate me after she finds out ive had surgery and make it hell for me to recover. my partner and i have been looking at hotels in my city where i can relax and not have to worry about her finding me. my location will only be told to a select few people (close friends, my partner (obv) and my sister)
i am too a point where i cannot continue having a quality life without my chest removed, so, If you can, please spread the word to all platforms possible. im not a very big artist, so i know this wont be easy or quick at all, but i hope within about a year i can get there. i just have to keep hoping. that things will turn out.
thank you all so much for reading! have a great day/night <3
