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An unusual situation - in a good way
4 years ago
Hello, everypony!
Something weird happened today, well, something I know that happens to me, but something I completely forgot about.
Working on the collar and actually making something with my hands, it actually made me smile for once in a long while. I can't remember the last time I actually smiled, and I honestly forgot how much making things made me happy. I think this is probably my calling, crafting things, that is.
Last time I remember feeling this happy would be back in high school, when I was in my computer and telecoms class, my woodworking class, or especially my sewing class. There is a reason I was the weird "guy" that took sewing every year in high school and begged the administrators to come up with a fourth sewing class I could take. (That was the most rewarding one, in my eyes, I got to teach some of the special needs students sewing, and the kid I was paired with was friggin' epic.)
I just need to find myself a place I can settle down and set up a studio, I guess. Maybe instead of focusing on electrical engineering if I get into college ever, I can just focus on design, and sewing. Sure, I may never become a fashion designer, but maybe I can self-train myself in more advanced latex, vinyl, and fabric work and start up my own little maker studio. I have experimented with making handpaws back in high school. (And yes, I also worked on those during instruction in my computer class, and people knew me so well they didn't even think about it twice.)
I think my true calling in life isn't programming, science, electronics, or any of the things I thought I liked growing up, I think I'm a designer, a seamstress, a crafter, a maker. I want to do this until I physically can't anymore, every second of it makes me happier and happier.
Sorry for this weird happy-rant, but honestly, if you've followed along in my journals before, it probably beats the depression me I tend to try to keep to Discord and myself for the most part. Thanks for reading, I'm hoping to work on small projects with my remaining latex and see what goodies I can make, as well as making a better second design, maybe I can keep this happiness going for a good while. I sure hope so.
It's kind of like coming out of myself, in a way, coming out of the shadows I feel trapped in, and finally feeling the light again. Thanks for all the support, everyone, especially the guy I'm fairly certain will reply to this. You all mean a lot to me!
Working on the collar and actually making something with my hands, it actually made me smile for once in a long while. I can't remember the last time I actually smiled, and I honestly forgot how much making things made me happy. I think this is probably my calling, crafting things, that is.
Last time I remember feeling this happy would be back in high school, when I was in my computer and telecoms class, my woodworking class, or especially my sewing class. There is a reason I was the weird "guy" that took sewing every year in high school and begged the administrators to come up with a fourth sewing class I could take. (That was the most rewarding one, in my eyes, I got to teach some of the special needs students sewing, and the kid I was paired with was friggin' epic.)
I just need to find myself a place I can settle down and set up a studio, I guess. Maybe instead of focusing on electrical engineering if I get into college ever, I can just focus on design, and sewing. Sure, I may never become a fashion designer, but maybe I can self-train myself in more advanced latex, vinyl, and fabric work and start up my own little maker studio. I have experimented with making handpaws back in high school. (And yes, I also worked on those during instruction in my computer class, and people knew me so well they didn't even think about it twice.)
I think my true calling in life isn't programming, science, electronics, or any of the things I thought I liked growing up, I think I'm a designer, a seamstress, a crafter, a maker. I want to do this until I physically can't anymore, every second of it makes me happier and happier.
Sorry for this weird happy-rant, but honestly, if you've followed along in my journals before, it probably beats the depression me I tend to try to keep to Discord and myself for the most part. Thanks for reading, I'm hoping to work on small projects with my remaining latex and see what goodies I can make, as well as making a better second design, maybe I can keep this happiness going for a good while. I sure hope so.
It's kind of like coming out of myself, in a way, coming out of the shadows I feel trapped in, and finally feeling the light again. Thanks for all the support, everyone, especially the guy I'm fairly certain will reply to this. You all mean a lot to me!
twinevr1
~twinevr1
Creating things is kind of a magical experience, ain't it? When you pour time and effort into making something you love, it plain feels good to do it, hehe.
Nexii_Chrona
~nexiichrona
OP
Called it! And yeah, it really does! I missed this feeling so much. I swear, making something just feels so very right. I'm so used to breaking things in bouts of frustration, and it kills me inside, but making things makes me feel so... rejuvenated? It's almost like I was born for this.
-eskir-
~-eskir-
Happy rants are good rants :P
Nexii_Chrona
~nexiichrona
OP
Certainly better than the sad ones!
