My dear brother spent many many years convincing me I was worthless and unwanted and basically should spend every moment alive apologizing to a tree for me wasting oxygen. Eventually I started believing him. Well about a year and a half ago something wonderful happened! He left thinking he was owed more then he had or the company we owned could provide for him. It took up to about 3 months ago for me to realize that he had successfully convinced me of all those things. So I have been working on myself for about a month trying to get my mind to disbelieve all the lies he basically forced me to believe. It has not been easy to do but I have been doing it. Him being gone makes it much easier to do but the end is still a long way off. This is a list of things I am still working on.
Trusting my instinct.
Trusting my knowledge.
Trusting my family.
Trusting my friends.
Confidence in my actions.
Confidence in my words.
Not relying on spite to get through the day.
Knowing I am enough.
Knowing I am not a burden to others.
Knowing I am not a waste of space.
I know many many MANY of you have been through or are going through this as well and I want you to know that I am so proud of you. My word as a stranger means nothing and that is ok to me but you need to know that I am proud of you. This shit is hard. Lol