Normally I wouldn't write vent journals like this expectually on FA but there's something I've been wanting to let out for quite some time now. First off it has something to do with drama that took place in a server I used to be in, having to cut ties with certain people, and helping my best friend out of all this stress. At first things were pretty good since my bff got invited in this server, unfortunately there were too many slip ups and misunderstandings to the point it got worse. He and I took hiatus for a week but got even worse after that. I then learned he was kicked out due to snapping at an admin. When he got kicked out I felt like a part of me was taken away. I hoped there was a chance he'd come back and redeem himself but unfortunately the admins were too stubborn to let him back in and decided to cut ties with him permanently. When I saw that and everyone treating him like a dangerous criminal, that was the final straw for me. It hurt me seeing everyone happy with him being out of there and I was the only one feeling miserable without him. I couldn't take it anymore so I decided to leave the server. Honestly, I'm happy to be out of there. Now that I got my own discord server, I can just do what I want without having to feel afraid to share my stuff and accidentally hurt someone. No drama no bullshit.

During all that drama I unfortunately had to cut ties with certain people who I used to call my friends for not only talking shit about my bff, but also accused him of convincing me to leave even though that was far from the truth. Even my own my ex boyfriend of all people. I thought he understood me the most and respected my decisions. But he also accused him of convincing me to leave. I told him before I left I was planning on leaving and it sounded like he understood. Sadly, he's changed and not in a good way. He and I used to be so close til he started treating me and my friend like shit. He was acting very strange, stopped talking to me first, heck even hardly said a word in my server.

One day I stopped watching one ex friend due to loss of interest, trying to avoid certain art and their attitude. Cause of that they cut ties for me. Which was ok with me because I was gonna cut ties with them anyway cause of their poor attitude. Cause of that my ex lashed out at me. It scared me. He had his moments with me but never like this. That was the last straw with him so I cut ties with him as well. I never wanted to do it. But all we seem to do is fight. The man I loved for 8 years has died and now he'd rather hang out with a bunch of strict, lying and manipulating assholes. I kicked him out of my server and disbanded the ships we made permanently. I even deactivated my DA account because of him . Honestly I'm much happier with him out of my life. That goes to those so called friends I had who did nothing but make me and my friend unhappy. But who needs them when I got REAL friends right here?