It’s been a short while since I’ve posted so I just get to it. I’ve been suffering from random bouts of anxiety these past few weeks and so far, it’s been affecting negatively. I can’t draw properly yet alone concentrate because of it. I’m pulling my hair out over it cause I don’t want to disappoint you guys but I also try to improve. That coupled with the wildfires going on in my province along with the high heat is destroying me mentally and psychologically. I can barely go to sleep nowadays, leaving me wondering if tomorrow will actually be worst than today. I haven’t confirmed it yet but some of things I’ve been experiencing so far correlate with seasonal depression. It may not be it, but at the same time I can’t rule it out at the moment.

As of late, I haven’t been able to get anything done in terms of sketching. I’m sorry to say it cause this is something I want to do more. Main problem is that I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ll try to do something, I promise. But at this time, it feels like I’m ramming my head into the wall, I’ve got nothing. Even when I’m trying do the figure sketching process, it’s harder on sketchbooks because if you press too hard with your pencil, the graphite sticks on the page. Add that with trying to get the limb length and torso proportions right and you’ve got an anxiety cocktail ready.

I just want to try and at least upload something for you guys. My greatest anxiety is letting people down next to accidentally offending someone. I want to make you guys happy so I’ll try to get drawing again soon. Even though I’m practically on the verge of breaking down, I’ll try to give you all something. All of you matter so much more than me.

Have a good day/night wherever you are… cause mine’s not going well.