I don't know how long I will have on this planet, but it feels like everything I was trying to do and improve doesn't seem to be going well for me right now. I been trying to have a good day but all of it sudden, yesterday it turns out the worse for me and its completely stupid. STUPID I TELL YOU!!!. I been trying to have a good day today and yesterday and not let my depression get the best of me, but now, it seems like its about to take fully control over me. I feel so pathetic and useless. Some people out there who are rich and famous on social sites even some gamers who has more followers and subscribers always trying to hold me back just for the sake of keeping their popularly on their social sites. -_-



There are some people in the world only cares much about money and millions instead of caring about other people's feelings. I never told you guys this but I will go ahead and say it now. I heard a story like this before but some people in the world who is popular on social sites who has more subs and followers and always flashing their money on the screen just to be a showoff and just because they earn millions of dollars on YouTube or Twitch or their business a month or a year who makes gaming or vlogs content. Even make your own comics or webcomics featuring your own fan characters base on something you love. Yeah, this is the story I heard of a while ago. Not only that, but some YouTubers or twitter users who is a gamer or a vloger makes fun of people who is poor just because they don't have a million of dollars or anything particular like them. Yeah, they really don't. They don't really care much about other people's feelings but their own. All they care about is getting more millions of dollars, more subscribers, followers and their popularity. That's all some of them cares about. They don't think about others feelings but themselves. Not some people in the world have something that they don't have and its not nice to make fun of others who don't have something that they have. Not everyone in the world is a content creator or a huge artist. Some people in the world are trying.



Some people and some youtubers in the world are so greedy these days witch I can't stand. It really annoys me sometimes. Some people only looking out for themselves instead of looking out for their friends or other people out their who needs help. I mean really, being greedy for once is ok, but being greedy so many times is just pathetic and pointless. Most people know that they only like noble people and users out there who is a great artist or a cool gamer only like them for their content, videos and there performances. Not their money. Just their content, videos or there performances only. But some people who is a true gamer or a artist doesn't seem to realize that. They really don't. Some of them I mean. Besides, money doesn't grow on trees you know or from a Shrek tree or something. Its not something that you get. Its something that you earn. Its like you put your heart and soul on the work you put in to it like anime's, animation, fan animation or fan characters or custom transition in your videos. Some people who is rich or a gamer has to do something right for a change like give half your millions of dollars to charity or give it to the children's who needs help to pay for their operation and health care like help some good kids who got cancer. Not all of the money, just some of it. Giving half your millions to charity and help the children's operation is not going to kill you even if your a rich content creator or artist on YouTube, Twitch and Twitter. Yeah. What I said is the truth and the truth needs to be told.



Sorry guys but I have to say this and there is some stuff I can't stand and it has to be told. Sorry for my bad English and grammar. Yeah, what I said is the truth. I wanted to be like the rest of them for a while now. Not being greedy with money or flashing it in my screen of course. I'm not like them who cares about that. I wanted to do something good for everyone and help other people out on how to become a great youtuber and a great content creator or a great vloger or a artist or whatnot. Or maybe help them on how to start their own YouTube channel and become a good content creator to help them out more or get them to start their own business with other companies like YouTube or other studios like animation or arts maybe. Yeah.




Everything I said was the truth. I do love helping people but now since my day has gotten a lot worse then yesterday it seems like my depression is consuming me and my foolish emotions. I'm still pathetic and nothing but a big failure. I'm trying to do something good right now but it just turns out the worse as always. People who are rich and noticeable on social media sites always keeps holding me back. I'm so freaking tired of people always keep treating people like me nothing but tools and garbage in this society. I'm just a nobody around here. I just feel some loneliness in me for a few years now with nothing special around me right now. No good things never happens to me around here in my life. I seen some things are special for some good people around here, but not me. I have no grudge against you guys and my friends. I'm being truly honest. -_-



My only grudge is some damn rich content creators and some artist who don't care about people's feelings and never do anything right for once in their lives and only care about their own millions of dollars, getting more followers and their popularity instead of caring about others. What a disgrace. some of them only care about that. You know, for some reason. I wish everyone in the world and the entire social media want me dead in this world. Yes I want to be dead in this world. I'm missing out on somethings that I want to be a part of and be one of them. But it turns out, it won't happen. Me being born in this world was a mistake for me. It really is. Nothing will ever cheer me up in a time like this. Nothing will. I just want my misery to be put out and then maybe it will get rid of my depression for good this time. Once I'm dead sooner or later, maybe people and my friends will forget about me or won't miss me at all.


If I never exist in this world then maybe I won't be born in the mid 90s and maybe won't get me in to gaming or me liking Sonic the most and then maybe the whole timeline will change for some people. Everything will be different at the end. I'm sorry everyone and my friends. I'm really am. I still love you guys. I have to say this and come clean about my truth of my depression. My loneliness is still deep inside me. It would be best if I disappear and have my memories erase in this world. I'm just a complete clown. I almost took my own soul out of me yesterday but I didn't have the guts to do it because I was crying for the first time and shed a little tear in my eyes. It feels like I'm losing the battle right now and never win something. I always get beaten. I hope you guys understand. I won't be here right now. But, I will try and post some arts and cool stuff in the fall if I'm here and alive. I hope guys enjoy your happiness in your dreams and your future for people that you care. I hope my depression goes away if I'm alive.