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Been Having Some Bad Internet Issues Lately...
4 years ago
So just a quick update (Which I hope will post because I've tried a few times but FUCK is my internet awful) about why there hasn't been much art lately.
So to start my boyfriend, Cass, and I had been house sitting for his parents for just over a month which kept me rather busy. He works 4 days a week for 11 hour shifts which meant I spent a good chunk of that time taking care of his parent's big house, all their plants, a dog, two cats, a fish tank, a koi pond, and five chickens. I was... very busy... So... fuckin' busy...
We got home a little over a week ago to discover that while we were gone our internet decided to basically kick the bucket! It's been so slow that it's basically unusable. Like, seriously, this is a speed test I did a few days ago and lemme tell you, it's just as bad now as it was then: https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachme.....90/unknown.png
In order to do ANYTHING online I have to use my phone data and I've been rationing that as much as possible so I don't eat through it all at once.
Now, you may be asking why I haven't tried messing with the router or called the ISP. Great question! I would love to but I can't!
We live in a share-house/granny flat that shares a property with another house. The other house is the "main" house where the router is located and since we don't technically live in that house or know anyone in there we can't really just walk in and start messing with stuff. I guess share houses aren't really meant to be a permanent living space so there's pretty much a revolving door of roommates for our house and people who live in the other house which makes it hard to really get to know people on a level deep enough to just walk into their living space uninvited.
SO in order to actually have anything done with the ISP we have to get in touch with our landlord and have him try to fix it or make the call for us because he's the account holder.
And NOW you may be asking why we don't just get an internet connection in this house since the router and everything is in the main house. And again I would love to but can't! Not only could we not afford the hook up costs, equipment, and monthly bill but we're also not allowed to do anything like that as per our lease. We just have to use whatever internet the landlord has set up no matter how much it sucks!
Now, we have reached out to him and let him know how awful it's been and he's said he'll call them "next week" so hopefully he actually does and this gets fixed so life can go back to normal.
I hate to admit that not having any kind of background noise makes it impossible for me to draw. I really need to be listening to music or a show otherwise my mind wanders and my mood crashes. Like, really bad.
I have VERY bad depression and while I have started medication for it there's still a lot of outside factors contributing to my low moods. And not having any kind of distraction or noise to focus on usually means my mind ends up drifting to those topics and I spiral until I'm in such a bad state that I can barely function and I want to die. It's a serious issue that I plan on getting professional help for when I can afford it but for the time being having some noise to drown it out is working.
Except for the fact that with the internet being as unusable as it is I can't really use netflix, youtube, or spotify while I'm drawing. So lately whenever I've tried I get about 10-15 minutes into a piece before being alone with my thoughts makes me feel like I'm on the verge of sobbing until I pass out.
Cass has advised me to take it easy until the internet gets fixed and been pushing for me to find other ways of distracting myself while we wait. He's been having me play a lot of games to keep my mind busy and we've even been organizing to join a D&D game a friend of our's is putting together.
I feel bad that I haven't gotten much done. What was supposed to be a quick week and a half of house sitting turned into over a month and now the internet issues combined with my own mental health struggles mean I haven't been able to get much done...
I think I'm going to finish off the commissions on my list and then close for a while while I revaluate my business and how I can still make money to pay the bills while working within the limits of what my mental health will allow, but I'll make a separate journal for that another day.
ANYWAY, it's almost 2am, I've been trying to post this journal for HOURS and I've even had to rewrite it a couple times so it probably reads like shit compared to the first draft but I'm tired, grumpy, and just really want to go bed and never wake up again.
TL;DR
Had to house sit and take care of a bunch of animals for over a month and had no free time
Came home and internet is basically unusable
Mental health is absolute shit and I can't work in silence with no distractions without my mood spiraling
I am so so sorry that I haven't posted much in a while and I hope I'm in a position to get my work done soon.
So to start my boyfriend, Cass, and I had been house sitting for his parents for just over a month which kept me rather busy. He works 4 days a week for 11 hour shifts which meant I spent a good chunk of that time taking care of his parent's big house, all their plants, a dog, two cats, a fish tank, a koi pond, and five chickens. I was... very busy... So... fuckin' busy...
We got home a little over a week ago to discover that while we were gone our internet decided to basically kick the bucket! It's been so slow that it's basically unusable. Like, seriously, this is a speed test I did a few days ago and lemme tell you, it's just as bad now as it was then: https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachme.....90/unknown.png
In order to do ANYTHING online I have to use my phone data and I've been rationing that as much as possible so I don't eat through it all at once.
Now, you may be asking why I haven't tried messing with the router or called the ISP. Great question! I would love to but I can't!
We live in a share-house/granny flat that shares a property with another house. The other house is the "main" house where the router is located and since we don't technically live in that house or know anyone in there we can't really just walk in and start messing with stuff. I guess share houses aren't really meant to be a permanent living space so there's pretty much a revolving door of roommates for our house and people who live in the other house which makes it hard to really get to know people on a level deep enough to just walk into their living space uninvited.
SO in order to actually have anything done with the ISP we have to get in touch with our landlord and have him try to fix it or make the call for us because he's the account holder.
And NOW you may be asking why we don't just get an internet connection in this house since the router and everything is in the main house. And again I would love to but can't! Not only could we not afford the hook up costs, equipment, and monthly bill but we're also not allowed to do anything like that as per our lease. We just have to use whatever internet the landlord has set up no matter how much it sucks!
Now, we have reached out to him and let him know how awful it's been and he's said he'll call them "next week" so hopefully he actually does and this gets fixed so life can go back to normal.
I hate to admit that not having any kind of background noise makes it impossible for me to draw. I really need to be listening to music or a show otherwise my mind wanders and my mood crashes. Like, really bad.
I have VERY bad depression and while I have started medication for it there's still a lot of outside factors contributing to my low moods. And not having any kind of distraction or noise to focus on usually means my mind ends up drifting to those topics and I spiral until I'm in such a bad state that I can barely function and I want to die. It's a serious issue that I plan on getting professional help for when I can afford it but for the time being having some noise to drown it out is working.
Except for the fact that with the internet being as unusable as it is I can't really use netflix, youtube, or spotify while I'm drawing. So lately whenever I've tried I get about 10-15 minutes into a piece before being alone with my thoughts makes me feel like I'm on the verge of sobbing until I pass out.
Cass has advised me to take it easy until the internet gets fixed and been pushing for me to find other ways of distracting myself while we wait. He's been having me play a lot of games to keep my mind busy and we've even been organizing to join a D&D game a friend of our's is putting together.
I feel bad that I haven't gotten much done. What was supposed to be a quick week and a half of house sitting turned into over a month and now the internet issues combined with my own mental health struggles mean I haven't been able to get much done...
I think I'm going to finish off the commissions on my list and then close for a while while I revaluate my business and how I can still make money to pay the bills while working within the limits of what my mental health will allow, but I'll make a separate journal for that another day.
ANYWAY, it's almost 2am, I've been trying to post this journal for HOURS and I've even had to rewrite it a couple times so it probably reads like shit compared to the first draft but I'm tired, grumpy, and just really want to go bed and never wake up again.
TL;DR
Had to house sit and take care of a bunch of animals for over a month and had no free time
Came home and internet is basically unusable
Mental health is absolute shit and I can't work in silence with no distractions without my mood spiraling
I am so so sorry that I haven't posted much in a while and I hope I'm in a position to get my work done soon.
