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August Update, a lot of stuff that is important to me.
4 years ago
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Hello, time for me to talk about what I'm up to.
So it's been a while, on account I moved twice; once to my boyfriend's place, then together with him and our animals to a newly built house. It's been a huge adjustment period for me in every aspect of my life. Getting FOUR cats to coexist happily in a new setting, having family visit for an extended period, getting used to living with my partner, dealing with my own emotions, anxiety, depression, and learning how to communicate more effectively has been quite a time. I had been working temp jobs for a while, but stopped for several weeks now as I work on domestic stuff and figure out what I am able to do.
Speaking of work things, I've learned a lot more about what I am able to do and what my limitations are. I can not work stressful jobs that deal with people a lot, I'm too worn out from people and have accepted that barely managing and having panic attacks is NOT a way to live. So no office jobs for me, I found factory work to be much more to my liking because I am strong and good with my hands, and it allows me to zone out and give my brain a break from sustained attention. There are limits to what my body can handle though, so I have quit a job that was too hot and fast paced for my health. It feels like I've been wasting time, but I remind myself that no, I'm learning what works for me and I've gained from all these experiences. I'm still waiting to get back with USPS, which was a good job with a good future if I can handle it long term.
On the other end, there's my art career I've been working on. I have this fear and self-sabotage tendency to shut myself down and not even try to take commissions, because I'll think "oh, I could get called for USPS any day, better not make any plans!" and then get nothing done. I'm afraid of getting overwhelmed, or being unable to finish artwork. But little by little I have taken commissions, entertained branching out with what I make, and being active in my local pottery guild to get more potters online.
I have taken this time to figure out where I can work on art, either in my studio space in the early morning to beat the heat or in my dining room where I can do detailed work and not sweat my skin off. I also have tested out streaming my pottery on Picarto, so I want to make that a goal for this month, just streaming pottery on a regular basis. I'm PRODUCING lots of cups and mugs for Pawcon, because potters know time flies by. In true traditional artist fashion I painted a wooden sign to hang at my table because I can. I'm also waiting for my business stickers to come in, so I can promote my stuff.
Overall I've learned a lot, have adjusted to big changes, and am fighting on to become better overall. I have so much more work to do, and will stay humble and open to learning.
So it's been a while, on account I moved twice; once to my boyfriend's place, then together with him and our animals to a newly built house. It's been a huge adjustment period for me in every aspect of my life. Getting FOUR cats to coexist happily in a new setting, having family visit for an extended period, getting used to living with my partner, dealing with my own emotions, anxiety, depression, and learning how to communicate more effectively has been quite a time. I had been working temp jobs for a while, but stopped for several weeks now as I work on domestic stuff and figure out what I am able to do.
Speaking of work things, I've learned a lot more about what I am able to do and what my limitations are. I can not work stressful jobs that deal with people a lot, I'm too worn out from people and have accepted that barely managing and having panic attacks is NOT a way to live. So no office jobs for me, I found factory work to be much more to my liking because I am strong and good with my hands, and it allows me to zone out and give my brain a break from sustained attention. There are limits to what my body can handle though, so I have quit a job that was too hot and fast paced for my health. It feels like I've been wasting time, but I remind myself that no, I'm learning what works for me and I've gained from all these experiences. I'm still waiting to get back with USPS, which was a good job with a good future if I can handle it long term.
On the other end, there's my art career I've been working on. I have this fear and self-sabotage tendency to shut myself down and not even try to take commissions, because I'll think "oh, I could get called for USPS any day, better not make any plans!" and then get nothing done. I'm afraid of getting overwhelmed, or being unable to finish artwork. But little by little I have taken commissions, entertained branching out with what I make, and being active in my local pottery guild to get more potters online.
I have taken this time to figure out where I can work on art, either in my studio space in the early morning to beat the heat or in my dining room where I can do detailed work and not sweat my skin off. I also have tested out streaming my pottery on Picarto, so I want to make that a goal for this month, just streaming pottery on a regular basis. I'm PRODUCING lots of cups and mugs for Pawcon, because potters know time flies by. In true traditional artist fashion I painted a wooden sign to hang at my table because I can. I'm also waiting for my business stickers to come in, so I can promote my stuff.
Overall I've learned a lot, have adjusted to big changes, and am fighting on to become better overall. I have so much more work to do, and will stay humble and open to learning.
I hope things sort out for you so you can be happy and healthy.