Where do you find your joy? What kind of things give you solace in a world like this?

Family. Friends.

I understand, and as someone who's in a similar spot, my sympathy goes out to you.

If you want to talk about it to someone, feel free to send me a note and let's exchange some instant messenger info (I have both Discord and Telegram). Hopefully this is one of those "It goes by a little bit easier with a friend" kind of deals.

As the old adage goes;

Shit sucks.

But that doesn't spell all doom and gloom! You just have to find your own joy even in the darkest places. Look to family and friends is the best place to start-!