So for those who are just joining me you might want to take a peek at this journal https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9950827/

That bullshit will be explained but wasn’t the only reason I’ve come to the decision to separate myself from the inflatable community.

Back in 2019 I went to a certain rabbit because I wanted to make an inflatable chair design that would have you sit on Zoran’s lap(look up the StarWars Episode 1 chairs as I based it off that) at first they were fine but they had other commissions so I had to wait a month but that was ok as I was excited to get this design made. A month went by and 1 day into the work they not only changed their mind saying “the nature of my content” but also blocked me on at least FA and I was devastated because that never happened before but blocking me was (in my eyes) absolutely uncalled for. Looking back on it I thought the nature of my content simply meant the diapers but I think it all comes back to the sketchy art but I will never know for sure. After letting myself cool I decided to go to another artist. This person I really looked up to and they did great art and toy designs but I was blocked on the spot for simply ASKING if diapers were ok and not only that but he talked shit about me behind my back and started the Illegal art rumor that still seems to go around to this day. (We will get back to this person as he really sent me in my downward spiral that has led my to take a leap back)
The following I don’t remember when it happened and I don’t think that matters but will be here to show how poor I’ve been treated which includes:

Being attacked for asking questions or having them removed.
Being muted in a chat for having a different opinion then everyone else
Being muted for TELLING a group that Xtube was removing all their free stuff
Being told to quit my endeavors (and the excuse being mis translation when I fought back)
A rules for me but not for thee group that reprimanded me for “swearing” in a pg group while it seemed like others did and nothing. One member said I was rude too but I was never rude or really active in that group.

The owner of the above group PMing me not to apologize for my poor treatment but to tell me that my profile picture looks like a white supremacy symbol and “educate” me when I didn’t ask. The icon was a birthday gift and was never supposed to be anything but a happy thing so the artist and I are furious over that. (To think I was gonna loan my squeaks to him for his little elitist meet up!)

I had a person call me a walnut brain and a good for nothing because I opened up a tiny bit about my poor treatment, this person also asked me why babyfurs have to hide and when I kindly reminded them to look at their friend (the same who blocked me in 2019 and made the illegal art rumor and got me kicked from the discord group)and because he doesn’t want to hear the truth blocked me. Things have gotten a bit better but he asked why people hate his friend and “he only hurt you two” (the other person being my friend from the beginning of the linked journal) like we are nobody and don’t matter and also the he didn’t mean to hurt us which hurts my brain trying to figure out how that’s possible. I also helped this person get not 1,not 2 but 3 FREE inflatable designs and I never got credit,mention or even a thank you and I find it that he won’t let me get his sona toy, wether it’s him being protective or him hating me I don’t know.

There have been incidents in which I get hated and blocked for taking one side AFTER I listen to both side of the issues. I don’t understand why people only listen to one and take their word for it instead of listening to both then making a decision based on that.Unfortunately those people who did that were going to help me with toy designs and I lost that help. Would I do it again? ABSOLUTELY as I will stand by my friends and always do what’s right.

Also this isn’t really anyone’s fault but it’s extremely discouraging when I send ideas to companies and get ignored. It seems that they don’t like new designs and would rather rerun the same boring things and run things from famous people. I know that a few probably get a lot and definitely need to weigh what would sell but if my things aren’t liked I’d rather be told that then never hearing anything. Also it seems that people seem to get art from a few others and won’t tell you how to contact the people that got the art from as There’s an artist I’ve wanted art from for years but the people who get art won’t share how to contact them.

Also that reminds me but someone shit on my for my opinoun of pop furs based on what I hear and based on some experience. I mean he didn’t seem rude but ignored me and passed up my offer to borrow a toy for videos and took the same boring toys everyone has seen a million times.

I had a certain wolf in one of my groups who would complain about every little thing and think and take everything as a personal attack. To shut him up I said I’d ban a certain user but when he demanded I do so I said no and he took a 180, attacked me, my admins, called us all incompetent,bitched on his Twitter and lied and said there was accusations of pedophilla against him which wasn’t true (and I feel was an attempt to get me canceled because so many assume AB/DL is pedo, heaven forbid people ask and clear things up!)and then called me immature for blocking him on twitter. He also has spies in my groups and pestered me not too long ago because I called him what he really is in my own group.

The following below has happened in the last month and was the final straw and is what made me ultimately go the path I’m going now.

Someone was all pissy because of someone I made a mod in my group and compared her to the universally hated wolf of above and was told an absolutely untrue rumor that she was seeing someone just because he was told that by someone else. ( I not only knew this was false but even confirmed it) and they demanded to be made an admin but left my group so I couldn’t anyway. this person did not just do a 180 but a full 360 as they had told me info about a toy being run and I posted the link to buy it, they claimed they went public with their info but said in bits and pieces and said if anything goes wrong with that toy it’s my fault and not the people running it. I never saw those bits and pieces and if you have info that’s so dire I think you should prepare a statement and post that and get it pinned but nope. This person also seems to have told the discord group and got me banned from it

In regards to the discord group I was banned for admitting I had illegal art. As you know that’s not true and was a poor choice of words but it the same hater from 2019 who is also friends with the person that called me a good for nothing Walnut brain is an admin of the discord who decided to log that away till it suited him. I actually made it my news years resolution to get answers as to why the poor treatment and was hopeful he changed and could have gotten closure but I not only didn’t get any but was treated poorly by him saying how thoroughly creeped out he was by me and blocked me. I probably shouldn’t have but I was distraught and went to the owner and begged for him to talk to his admin but was ignored. Thanks to the 360 I also found out that the owner said avoided me like the plague and I was throwing a fit because I was enforcing a rule in my OWN chat and going after someone and that how I was enforcing this rule before it was posted and when I showed them the screenshots of them saying it they didn’t say anything and claimed they didn’t hate me. I was also told that I don’t belong in HIS community and I know he has spies everywhere(which seems to be a common theme with all these shit people)

And don’t forget I got booted because my project partner doesn’t align with his views and I get punished for that as well as him not listing to me try to tell him I do not have illegal art.


I will say I’ve only had 2 issues in the AB/Dl community in the 9 years being here and sadly I was treated poorly and even threatened and shit on but that’s not enough to make me leave that.

I hope this serves as an eye opener for people since it seems stuff gets shoved under the rug because people would rather have their toys and would rather fight to see who has the biggest dick then caring about each other.

And now you also know why I’ve decided to separate myself from the inflatable community. I’ve tried so hard to make a difference and the last 3 years proved I will never belong and that really hurts to say. Now what will happen is my passion which is making inflatables specifically for the AB/DL community since there are so many ideas that could and should be made. I also want to involve AB/DLs with the process of making toys, everything from ideas,art, 3D modeling and even let people’s sonas be toys! Im gonna struggle even more then before since non of the inflatable designers are diaper friendly though and this may very well fail but we shall see how that goes.

Thanks for listening and being there for me and I can’t wait to turn over a new leaf!