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4 years ago
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Hello again everyone!
I hope that all of you are doing wonderful and well as of late! Sure it's only been a couple of weeks since the last journal but given the length of time between prior journals that didn't pertain to things like a holiday or birthday or something, oh dear like a year or so and such, I thought it'd be a good of a time as any to go and make another one! How exciting!
Well anyway, I've been having a bit of a think on things in this fantastical community of ours and there was something that came up in a conversation a friend I had. Everyone has to start somewhere and sure there's that point of time where you actually joined and became a part of things, but the interesting thing that came up how did you get here and how did you even start? Heh, well that one's a bit of a long story but I think it all boils down to one thing, and that one thing being confidence.
I've found that confidence is something hard for me to come by, where I feel afraid to jump forward sometimes whereas with others it comes by with relative ease. I get this feeling that everything has to be done just right, and there can't be any faltering in those steps. It comes to me in such a way that things have to be well researched beforehand, taking into account every single factor, make something that "wows" others and so on and so forth, where others can just walk into a room with a stride like no other and own it! It was about oh gosh almost 11 years ago now when I first joined Furaffinity and started to be a part of this community, but there was a time prior to it where I watched, learning and then joined the site, before waiting another year I believe before making a real push into it. If anything, I found FA through a webcomic ages ago through DeviantArt, and then found a link to an artists webpage here and then everything just grew from there, quite literally! There was a bit of time prior to those 11 years where I was also watching, mainly due to no new accounts being able to be set up, so that helped me in a ways with figuring out how I wanted to enter the furry community. Our community is a fascinating one, full of care and love and joy and appreciation for ones self and everyone around them, where there is creativity like no other, where there are stories told that have never been told before, where people create, invent, inspire each other in so many different ways and it is so nice to see. But I'm getting away from the point that I'm trying to make I think, that confidence.
Joining the site itself was a hurdle for me from the get go, faving that first artwork I liked and then, gosh now that I think about it it makes me chuckle, panicking when that very artist comes to my page saying thank you for the favorite, and then disappearing for a week or so was another hurdle. To be fair I was going through a big jump in my life at the time with my education, but that's a story for another time. What I'm getting at is that since then I've developed quite a lot more confidence since them, I feel like I can reach out to people and say hello, how are you doing, what are you working on, is there anything I can do to help you out or some such, even play a game or something. To sit down and write with a friend, to buy a tablet and try to art with my friends before the tablet decided to kick the can shortly after getting it, still miffed about that, or to join a massive social group online and be a part of something and be known for something that is totally not falling asleep when it's too late and forgetting to turn things off, or even helping people with a multitude of problems through a variety of studies in anatomy, color, culture, history, and so many other things. The thing is, I took those steps and I feel good about them, despite the failings that happen sometimes. It's actually really nice to have that now and it all came from me taking that first step, and I wonder what it was like for others, or maybe even everyone else.
The thing is, confidence is a very difficult thing for me to figure out. I've tried a multitude of ways to deal with it, but I always get held back on the "how". Most recently, in the past couple of months I've been working hard on trying to make a significant jump in my life that will bring me more stability, that will make things plenty easier for myself and others around me, and on top of that get things on track. At the same time, it's the uncertainty that stops me, factors that I don't know and don't know how to understand or in some way control. I get this feeling that no amount of study will give me the correct answer since everything is an ever-changing variable that can significantly have an impact on everything in life going forward and I feel it is a form of fear that either holds me back and stops me, or makes it so that I can't figure out if I should move forward. I get this feeling that this happens to a lot of others too, even through the community and elsewhere and it's something that's been around for ages. I guess what I'm looking for is some exercises to feel more confident and to feel like I can actually do a thing no problem. With that said, I find myself being the first to volunteer for some form of initiative, or be the one to say hey let's play this game or go here, so I guess I am getting better at things!
With that said, all of you are an inspiration in one way or another, you help change the world around you in many different ways. It's always wonderful seeing all of you around and the things that you want to go about and make. You are all fantastic to talk to in one way or another, as you make everything feel awesome, so please do keep being awesome!
Have a lovely day everyone~!
Dialuca01
I hope that all of you are doing wonderful and well as of late! Sure it's only been a couple of weeks since the last journal but given the length of time between prior journals that didn't pertain to things like a holiday or birthday or something, oh dear like a year or so and such, I thought it'd be a good of a time as any to go and make another one! How exciting!
Well anyway, I've been having a bit of a think on things in this fantastical community of ours and there was something that came up in a conversation a friend I had. Everyone has to start somewhere and sure there's that point of time where you actually joined and became a part of things, but the interesting thing that came up how did you get here and how did you even start? Heh, well that one's a bit of a long story but I think it all boils down to one thing, and that one thing being confidence.
I've found that confidence is something hard for me to come by, where I feel afraid to jump forward sometimes whereas with others it comes by with relative ease. I get this feeling that everything has to be done just right, and there can't be any faltering in those steps. It comes to me in such a way that things have to be well researched beforehand, taking into account every single factor, make something that "wows" others and so on and so forth, where others can just walk into a room with a stride like no other and own it! It was about oh gosh almost 11 years ago now when I first joined Furaffinity and started to be a part of this community, but there was a time prior to it where I watched, learning and then joined the site, before waiting another year I believe before making a real push into it. If anything, I found FA through a webcomic ages ago through DeviantArt, and then found a link to an artists webpage here and then everything just grew from there, quite literally! There was a bit of time prior to those 11 years where I was also watching, mainly due to no new accounts being able to be set up, so that helped me in a ways with figuring out how I wanted to enter the furry community. Our community is a fascinating one, full of care and love and joy and appreciation for ones self and everyone around them, where there is creativity like no other, where there are stories told that have never been told before, where people create, invent, inspire each other in so many different ways and it is so nice to see. But I'm getting away from the point that I'm trying to make I think, that confidence.
Joining the site itself was a hurdle for me from the get go, faving that first artwork I liked and then, gosh now that I think about it it makes me chuckle, panicking when that very artist comes to my page saying thank you for the favorite, and then disappearing for a week or so was another hurdle. To be fair I was going through a big jump in my life at the time with my education, but that's a story for another time. What I'm getting at is that since then I've developed quite a lot more confidence since them, I feel like I can reach out to people and say hello, how are you doing, what are you working on, is there anything I can do to help you out or some such, even play a game or something. To sit down and write with a friend, to buy a tablet and try to art with my friends before the tablet decided to kick the can shortly after getting it, still miffed about that, or to join a massive social group online and be a part of something and be known for something that is totally not falling asleep when it's too late and forgetting to turn things off, or even helping people with a multitude of problems through a variety of studies in anatomy, color, culture, history, and so many other things. The thing is, I took those steps and I feel good about them, despite the failings that happen sometimes. It's actually really nice to have that now and it all came from me taking that first step, and I wonder what it was like for others, or maybe even everyone else.
The thing is, confidence is a very difficult thing for me to figure out. I've tried a multitude of ways to deal with it, but I always get held back on the "how". Most recently, in the past couple of months I've been working hard on trying to make a significant jump in my life that will bring me more stability, that will make things plenty easier for myself and others around me, and on top of that get things on track. At the same time, it's the uncertainty that stops me, factors that I don't know and don't know how to understand or in some way control. I get this feeling that no amount of study will give me the correct answer since everything is an ever-changing variable that can significantly have an impact on everything in life going forward and I feel it is a form of fear that either holds me back and stops me, or makes it so that I can't figure out if I should move forward. I get this feeling that this happens to a lot of others too, even through the community and elsewhere and it's something that's been around for ages. I guess what I'm looking for is some exercises to feel more confident and to feel like I can actually do a thing no problem. With that said, I find myself being the first to volunteer for some form of initiative, or be the one to say hey let's play this game or go here, so I guess I am getting better at things!
With that said, all of you are an inspiration in one way or another, you help change the world around you in many different ways. It's always wonderful seeing all of you around and the things that you want to go about and make. You are all fantastic to talk to in one way or another, as you make everything feel awesome, so please do keep being awesome!
Have a lovely day everyone~!
Dialuca01
BalooBear
~baloobear
Hugs :) your pretty awesome. Glad to have met you.
