I’m going to let out some steam here, I made a choice last night to end and all ties with someone that I’ve been online friends with for close to 20 years. It hurts so much, but I had to.

You see, lately I’ve been using her as inspiration to draw, write, and better my life; but I’ve come to realization that I’m following the same path I took many, many years ago and that isn’t good for me.

It’s hard to explain, because not everyone understands. So I don’t think I’ll be able to convey what I’m saying, It was uplifting for me to share and care for her, because it gave me a sense of encouragement and meaning, but when you don’t receive the same kind of treatment back, it’s hard to stay positive.

Yeah, I know she’s got a guy and that’s why I needed to let go, because I’m following the same steps as with someone else in the past and that wasn’t healthy for me.

It’s my fault. I dug myself in this hole. The only way out is to end this friendship we supposedly had close to 20 years.

You don’t realize the importance of someone until their gone, unfortunately I’ve been on the receiving end of that many of times, I don’t wish that upon anyone.