Hiatus
4 years ago
General
I won't be around for some time.
I've come to ruin a good friendship. No matter what I did it turned out wrong. Every attempt at trying to figure myself out and find a way forward ended in disaster.... I just... I need some time alone. I've never hurt this bad in my life. I don't know why those I cherish most I lose. I lost the coolest cat I've ever mat and my best friend in the same week. I'm truly at a loss as to what to do right now.
I feel so utterly destroyed and lost.
I've come to ruin a good friendship. No matter what I did it turned out wrong. Every attempt at trying to figure myself out and find a way forward ended in disaster.... I just... I need some time alone. I've never hurt this bad in my life. I don't know why those I cherish most I lose. I lost the coolest cat I've ever mat and my best friend in the same week. I'm truly at a loss as to what to do right now.
I feel so utterly destroyed and lost.
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Really good people, the ones you want in your life, are the ones who will care about you and your feelings, will weather storms with you, and never abandon a friendship. To cherish people, in many situations, they should cherish you just as much. I just think you're willing to love so much, that you might overlook their true feelings too. Take this to heart and move forward. These events happen, sometimes more than most, and it just means that you are surrounding yourself around the wrong people. Look at how they feel about you, really... before you start to feel something about them.
Hope your hiatus is a very brief one.
Best you can do at this point is cherich the good bits you had in that relationship with the people in question. It's literally what they are worth for most. After all, the end could come in many forms, more pleasant or worse. If you can safe the relations some way then do it, worst you can do when fighting is lose a battle you'd lose anyways. But ultimately, it is worth to take from it what is most worth: be it good memories, or lessons for the future.
My condolences.