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I feel disgusting.
4 years ago
For a month now I have been trying to draw what I like, but it’s not getting easier for me. Rather, even depressing. I look at how others draw and I cannot do the same. And I can't even earn myself a crumb of bread (to put it mildly), because now I live practically only at the expense of my parents.
The last course and diploma are still ahead, which is why there is also pressure on me from my studies. In short, the title of this post reflects my current state. All I can do now is wake up, sit out my studies and all the same in vain trying to squeeze something creative out of myself. Even if I try very hard, I don't like what happened and I only begin to mentally destroy myself even more in this regard.
I don't like crying in the post, but I hope for your understanding.
All those to whom I owe the commission will be delivered on time. I'm sorry.
upd:someday i will delete this post because i am ashamed lmao
The last course and diploma are still ahead, which is why there is also pressure on me from my studies. In short, the title of this post reflects my current state. All I can do now is wake up, sit out my studies and all the same in vain trying to squeeze something creative out of myself. Even if I try very hard, I don't like what happened and I only begin to mentally destroy myself even more in this regard.
I don't like crying in the post, but I hope for your understanding.
All those to whom I owe the commission will be delivered on time. I'm sorry.
upd:someday i will delete this post because i am ashamed lmao
Perhaps the best thing you could do is take some time to rest and get back on track. Everyone works at different paces and rhythms, so don't push yourself and end up burning out just because. Good luck.
Yes, I realize that everyone has a different pace. But as an option that I feel uncomfortable just because I do nothing. This creates a lot of terrible conflicts in me. :^(
It is somewhat difficult to grasp, but really I would suggest taking a break once you finish your commissions and giving yourself some time to practice, have fun and overall rest.
Good idea;) I'll try really hard to do it. Thank you again!
Your style is beautiful too, so don't forget that
I'll try ❤
It even helps somehow, surprisingly.
Because I have never really shared such life and moral difficulties with the audience. Because I thought that everyone would think that I was a whiner unwilling to do anything."
Я знаю, что аудитория со стримов Олеши эта не та, которую ты возможно хотела бы видеть у себя на ФА, но в какой то степени, ты являешься моим, и не только моим мотиватором рисовать. Мне очень нравится твой стиль, и я уверена что ты выберешься из задницы! Мы любим тебя!
Мне без разницы какая аудитория и где, главное, чтобы была адекватная и ценила труд людей. Мне любое действие приятно!
Сейчас сердце остановится от такого Q_________Q Спасибо большое!!! Я тоже люблю вас <)