Hiyo,

Well, damn, I haven't posted here for a long time. Since I got a Twitter account, I've started posting various statuses and thoughts in that place, so FA journal is not that much needed. But I sometimes feel nostalgic.

Thinking of opening some commissions/raffles, generally something that lets me interact with people. I'm drawing my pics, logging in to post them and logging off. Maybe I should stop being this disconnected.

Max - my character, my wild jungle dude, is 10 years old. Even more, should I count years before moving to FA - the concept of a character was in play for quite a while, but it was here, on Furaffinity, where I decided to make Max a variant of my real self. That was the change in his design, when I made his hair brown instead of orange and beefed him up. During my therapy sessions I've been asked many times about my inner child, and I think that Max definitely has something of that concept - the ideas of wilderness, return to the nature, lost innocence, longing for the careless time when one could play all the time. He is powerful and yet cute, fuzzy, silly. And he's combined with my powerful fetishes and sexuality, allowing me to explore concepts I was deeply ashamed of and afraid to be seen with.

I'm thankful for Max Junglefooter in my life.

I'm trying to make my life, hobbies, activities, less fractured and separated from themselves. Spent too much time on shame and self-agression towards my kinks, interests and fascinations. I tried to quit 3 or 4 times because of those feelings, and it would be nothing good for me.

I'm thankful for all of you supporting my art and me as a person. I love you and I'm so glad you are in my life.

Take care and thank you so much.

JF