Hello my friends. My week and my summer season has been going very well so far, but I'm still in the same boat as always and nothing has cheer me up yet. It feels like I'm stuck in the dark void being all chain up by my depression. Sometimes when you feel very depressed, Darkness shallow you with it. Darkness consume you and trap you in a void with nothingness and loneliness. Its really hard to break the chain of that depression and the chain will not let you go until you show your true self and feelings. Once your all chain up in the void, your just watching rich youtubers creators, content creators or artist just having fun because of there greediness and trying to act like they win a lot.

Being all chain up with the dark void in my mind, It feels like it won't let you go because your not special and noticeable anywhere. Even on social media. Sometimes breaking the chain is really hard to get loose. Its like your all chain up looking like a huge failure like me. Not being noticeable anywhere on the web makes me want to be dead in the ground because the chain owns you and it consumes you until there is nothing left for you. Its really hard to break that chain because it chained your entire body and it won't let you go until there is nothing left in you. Sometimes once you all chained up in a dark void, it just keeps feeding off everything you have for yourself and its just keep getting stronger until it reach its full potential because of my depression and my loneliness. Both of them still deep inside me and I will never be that same person or have my depression getting rid of again. I'm not that special, I'm not so great. I'm not a big artist. I'm just a nobody and a huge failure. I'm not special. -_-

As for my uploads, I haven't upload anything on here for weeks because of my loneliness I have been dealing with. But, I guess I have to accept that I'm a nobody. I'm a big stupid failure and a loser. I guess I'm just some clown who upload stuff as in just stuff for not being noticeable on social or whatnot. So, what's the point. I'm just useless who made that stupid mistake a few years ago. I'm just a useless fool who post crappy art. Nothing put me out yet. Nobody did yet. I'm just waiting. This week is ok for me, but I will post some of my best arts of my OCs and some random Sonic fanart. that I did in the summer. But I could post two sometime this week and I won't post another one until October or so. I'm currently practicing on lineart in IbisXpaint now. Maybe soon, you guys and my friends will see my improvement that I did. I hope you guys understand. If you want to give me a image or some tips, then you can if you guys like. I don't mind. Right now, I hope my depression goes away soon. I really hope it does. Otherwise, I'll just wait for my misery to be put out or do it myself. Its really hard to break the chain that consume you.

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