It’s been over a year from my last update and a lot has happened to me. To cut the long story short, next month will mark 1 year from where I was laid off from the county job for nearly 11 years. I decided to take a vendor job they offered but I know that next time, I'll take unemployment. The vendor didn't take kind of me for being absent due to the fact that my eldest brother has die back in February of this year. He had a heart pump since he was in his thirties and it’s a miracle that he lived to be 55. He would’ve been 56 this past April. This vendor had a toxic environment and nepotism. I kept in contact with my former coworkers from the vendor and the county. Looks like I got fired at a good time because everything gone downhill since. They can’t keep people and it’s due to their toxic environment. A few who I called notice a change in my voice and that burden was removed from my shoulders. I'm totally relax and I have no more stress from that job.

Next, the ice storm. Thankfully, I went over to my late sister's house since it has gas power chimney and stove. I along with my father, my only brother now and his kids made it out okay. I know it sound bad but I’m thankful that my eldest brother no longer suffering and mainly that he didn’t have to go through this power outage. He was on a heart pump and we need power. After the ice storm, one of my late sister’s dogs had pass away and my youngest nephew was sad about it. His brother got Zeus, which was his name, ashes and a paw print of him.

I been job hunting and finally found a job but it was contract back in late June of this year. It didn’t last long and I was let go. When I was the reason why, they said it was a performance issue. I asked what performance issues and I got no response. I knew they was lying because my performance was good and I was getting a lot of comments. I knew that they were lying about me and the supervisor was no good, especially after the feedback he was given about me. That place was nothing but the good old buddy system and they had piss poor training, was never set up for their system, people was horseplay and basic this place was just like high school with a side of elementary brats. I won't take any contract jobs never again! It's just like those reviews said which is a dirty low down shame.

This month made me happy somewhat. First and foremost, my father and my oldest nephew birthdays was the first weekend of September 2021. My father is now 80 years old and he’s been through a lot, especially loss of love ones. Despite of this, he been very kind and he’s a walking historian. I keep thinking about when his time comes, I'll be truly heartbroken and will truly be alone. Been feeling depressed about missing love ones, mainly the ones I spent the most time with.

Enough about that. Today is my birthday and I didn’t do much besides enjoying the nice fall weather and spoke to a few people. I currently with family and celebrated my birthday here per usual.

This year has been rough for me and I’m still hopeful although I get depressed about certain things sometimes. I try to remind myself that it’s beyond my control and let it go but it’s hard, more so if it impacting certain parts in your life.

I’m thinking about moving out of this city perhaps next year or so. I need a new scenery, change and think this will help uplift my mood. Plus, there’s nothing left for me in this city, especially after certain love ones had passed away.

Somewhat fun news, I got a fursuit of Gatoraus Rex and a costume of King K. Rool. I had some art work and photos I need to upload here. I been dealing with a lot and more facing loneliness. First, I focus on getting a job and making sure it’s not contract and then I can focus on other things which needs to get done.

Until then, I hope it won’t be a long time for an update.

Gatoraus Rex