i should totally kick my butt for not doing anything done or anything, i have ups and downs and got no where i need to get motivated

bumping the last journal

i think I'll probably post one or two more pictures soon when and if i finish them, got to say the creative muse is so far away right now. i know in the past i have hinted at stopping on to post something new but given everything i think I'm about ready to finally say enough I'm done

well as many of you have noticed nothing new has been posted for awhile. yeah sorry, works been a bitch lots of other shit going too been struggling to keep my head above water lately and it all came crashing down last weekend hitting my lowest point ever.

Still with support from friends i think i have made positive steps i hope

Ok little update for those that read this cos I think it's about as useful as advertising on the highway some will see it most won't.

Anyways have plenty of ideas in my head hoping to get a lot out soon so hopeful if I can keep focus I'll get some more are going but borderlands 2 is awesome yeah this is going to be hard

Also going to make a new logo

Well rough few stressful weeks at work are hopeful over. I really need to do some more arts feel so lazy towards it

Go to v8supercars one next wake up sick yay probably wot be going back today.

Still open to opinions and comment on EKs redesign as posted in my last journal.

Oh now some good news I was gifted a cool fursona. which I think will replace my dis used husky fursona. It's DA so will have to see about reporting here. Can you believe someone has already signed up at DA with the user name Cf1 not cool.

My most drawn character (well by me atleast) Emerald Kailani im thinking in a rather doctor who-ish like style have her regenerated in her ongoing battle with her sister. or something like that.


what do people think keep her the same? regenerate her? what do people think?

i have some ideas for concepts but nothing fleshed out as yet.

basically her colours wont change but her pattern will maybe even species a different type cat maybe or something completely new

dont get me wrong i do like her current look but i just figured this be fun heck could keep the doctor who thing going and have the two Emeralds turn up due to time space wipple wopple timey wimey reasons


any let me know what you think. thoughts suggestions. seriously this time

hey watchers active or not

im back ... yet again. i had time to think, i left before due stress and disappointment. i was stressed still from rl problems and personal ones, i was disappointed by the lack of response to anything i posted, my last two being good examples and it made me doubt myself and doubt if i wanted to keep posting or making any. that being said im aiming really low this time, not letting my hopes up as clearly this is just building for disappointment. i know it sounds like complaining and maybe it is but as i have said time and time again i do not do this for money but still there has to be some return. why is it work i put i alot more enough into it get less avs and lower comments i dont know.

that aside, i want to create a new character. so i would like suggestion on what she could be. so i like suggestions on species, bust size, tattoos / markings/ fur and hair colours/ flesh colours etc . also like suggestion on names as well and how you like to see this new character drawn, fetishes welcome i consider them.

this character will not be a replacement for emerald just wanting to give her a break but if anyone has a suggest of how they like to see emerald drawn ill consider them too


so yeah throw your seggestions out there i will consider any and all (if any at all) when i create this new character

i have thought about this for awhile now, if should post this entry or not and yet im not sure if should or shouldnt either way its about my future on FA and i guess in general.

Im not sure i want to continue on here, expect for a small amount of people, wonderful people who i thank very much for their support, there doesnt seem much point to post here, i do all this stuff for free only wanting some kind of response, feed back something anything, i dont do this for commission so other then feedback i dont get no sence of job well done or whatever, it might seem small but i dont get the boost to do more.

maybe im just ranting or raving i dont know i dont care

at any rant im not sure when my next post will be i had hope to do something and have it up but my mental state as it is, i just dont feel like it or anything for that matter

i dont think its goodbye at this stage but i will see

PS

if you have a problem with me posting my thoughts in my journal, dont read it and dont comment simple

i hate today just hate it... cant wait for it to be over

during my lunch break i took a run to get some lunch yesterday i was pester by people selling vday gift ideas like papers and fliers and what not shoved in my face. well today it was a completely different bunch of people there trying to same shit serious i feel like nailing my head to my desk.


and the next person who says "awww its not that bad"

GO to HELL!


ps that goes for "you should go to a club and meet a nice girl"

seriously a nice girl at a club really seriously been to the club around here? get bent chances are ill get a nice bug from that, rather fall down stairs

im out here

rant over

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BLAH!

just me having a bitch so dont read on

just a shit day so over this crap sometimes

Wip has moved to scrapes you know what that means......

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7339958/

well the WIP pic has moved to scrapes so that can only mean sexy kitties WOOOO!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7313656

Taken from Skandian who got it from ummm dont know its a meme it gets around..... just a note i normal dont do this

From now on, you can’t tell lies, are you ready?
- i cant tell you that in some way that it may or may not be a lie what i can say its no space station

Think back eight months ago, were you single?
- yep

What do you carry with you at all times?
- at all times really? wallet keys my insanity ..... hehehehahhaa what

Are you a cuddler?
- sometimes

What would I find if I looked UNDER your bed?
- Im not sure i just call him bing

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you text messaged?
-ermmmmm i give up can i buy a vowel

How are you feeling?
- loony and ho..... stop that

Is something wrong right now?
- yep single... but then more monies for me hmmmmmmmm conflicted i am

Are you mad at someone?
- come back tomorrow

How much do looks matter to you in a girl?
- eh a little, i like personality more and sense of humor and well is it much for them to like gaming and anime?

What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
- i got to ride a moose..... damn you invader zim

How many TRUE best friends do you have?
- a few but your right loyalities must be tested good job meme

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
- hell no up at 4:30 am again

How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over?
- cried got mad then cried alittle more then got tacos

Where is your number one friend on your friends list?
- under potato and above misc

Do you have anyone crushing on you?
- not that i know of so i'll go with no

When was the last time you talked to your most recent ex?
- last year sometime, its not an important highlight

Do you sleep with the TV on?
- i think so but its off when i awake up soooo go figure

Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
- what no, just no

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
- once but i was really really tired

Are you jealous of someone right now?
- yeah i guess so my best friends who are married or with someone ......

Where is the person you like right now?
- need to have someone for that

What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?
- Lunch

What are you supposed to be doing right now?
- Working on reports and not memes

What is the sexiest part of the opposite sex's body?
- one would say legs, arse and breasts and i would agree but.... the eyes have it for me they can be so amazing

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
- why you going to watch shame on you

Could you handle a long distance relationship?
- possibly i wouldn't rule it out

Could you cry right now?
- not when there's science to be done

Are you okay with the life you live?
- i wonder that sometimes and i really really don't know

Did you enjoy your day today?
-its not over

Do you have a tattoo?
- Nope

Would you ever get any piercings on your body, other than your ear?
- Noooooope

Ever had a song sang about/for you?
- nope

What was the last thing you spent money for?
- new drawing tablet

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
- my best friend

Do you call it fall or autumn?
- autumn

11:11… Make a wish?
- i wanna be happy

Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?
- no one at the moment

What were you up to at 9pm last night?
- seating back having a glass of water, posting to this site or was that 10pm

Do you hold grudges?
- yeah i can >.>

Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
- yeah it was strange i was so tired like being drunk i think never been drunk so not sure

What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?
- eh whatever they can be as happy or as miserable as everyone else fairs fair i guess doesn't bother me

Who was your last text from?
- friends

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
- ooooooooh yeah

One thing you’re looking forward to?
- eh

Are you shy at first when it comes to meeting people?
- ya

Has anyone ever called you sexy?
- yeah well handsome maybe

What color is your camera?
- black kinda charcoal

Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
- what do you think

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
- i can but sometimes it gets too much

Are you wasting your time on someone?
- right now no before yeah

Have you ever overheard a conversation you weren’t supposed to?
- doesnt everyone

By the way, what is your name?
- tell me yours and ill tell you mine

Are you currently in a relationship?
- NO sadly

Do you give out second chances too easily?
- yeah

What color is your favorite hoodie?
- Black with red time

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
- No.... enough said

as title says In back but for how Long is the Question

hey everyone just when i thought i could get back into the swing some bad news has happened i wont go into too much detail but i good long time friend of mine lost his brother in the worse of reasons. it has left us all shock and sadden so i will be focused on the well being of one of my best mates

well it was a long wait and it was really cos of the piece its self had alot going on bit of a crazy house but seems to be some what back to normal or as normal as it can be crazy is fun no matter what anyone says

Now anyways the last piece i tried alittle something new and over all im very happy with it to me the character seems more fleshed out more less 2d if that makes sence if your not sure which piece i mean its this one http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3762533

i would some feed back from people im still finding my feet and each new piece i find something alittle different

anyways keep safe everyone

ok this isnt to shit stir im just going to vent read on if you want and dont if you dont. ok i since posting my first piece here i have always hoped that my work would spark lively interest in my work but when a more lively debate break out of something in a piece rather then the character then i have to wonder am i doing something seriously wrong. is something done for effect more interesting to look at then the character?

if people want to debate and argue something that is not really important and just some little to add to a piece then im going to have to reconsider my content.


oh and i thank the party that did apologies thank you

as the title say there will be delays but dont worry i hope it will be worth it i have been looking in to tutorials for new ideas and styles and hoping to learn them and use them in my work so im hoping that the next piece will be bigger and better

hey everyone theres a reason why nothing new has gone up on my page needless to say at the moment i dont feel like drawing anything for now but when i do you will know

sorry

OK which do you prefer and why?

im interested in what you all think

do you like the kitty more or are you for puppies

see them here http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3223942/

Have you say would you like Emerald to remain a kitty? or would you like to see her become a puppy? or would you like to see both versions of her in the future?

very sorry everyone my xmas picture is just taking so long to do havent had the time but its still holiday season so i will continue to try and get it up asap




finished its up for your viewing pleasure

Skandian's assassion pic marks the first work i finished since i guess could say the end of my rought patch but im not back to my happy self i dont know when i will be but atleast im at the point i can do this stuff, anywho enough about that whats next well in no real order

theres a kittyflame to come, one for lady_wolfe a xmas special and aload more then i get them done so keep an eye out

Wooooo FA is back baby its been along wait but its back

anyways things have been no so good for im offically single and i had to find it out through a popular internet social networking site hows that for a kicker and yet the some of the reasoning behind it all was well poor oh well

live goes no time to sit around moop time to kick it in gear cos and to quote "just who the hell do you think i am?"

lets do this

yeah good to be back im ready to get some new works up so stay tuned some bat chan...... you get the idea

nearly 2 weeks ago i posted a WIP for an ODST well its done its been long for along of reasons even how i felt i just couldnt leave it alone. this doesnt mean im ready to get back into drawing as things still weight heavy on me and it has me down way down, but atleast for now enjoy this piece


oh yeah in all honestly i really dont think it matters what rating i set for my work is it that big a deal? i dont think so

i have other things to think about and worry about then mature or adult either way no one who hasnt got a profile can see them